Yes, she was very sure that she would only put to sleep if she believed the animal was suffering, and the prognosis was not good.
This might explain her rationale- circumstances change and somebody who has had 6 months unemployed and wants to PTS might win the lottery, or get a job.
Yes, I thought the vet wouldn't be able to refuse, surely if the owner can't afford it and there's problems, then it's better to PTS with the vet if that's what the owner wants?
It's not really though, if the debate's about it the vet would do it, as I'd find it difficult to use the method of disposal that you mention for my horse, but that's my complete personal preference, so if I was faced with not being able to have a secure and safe home, and having to use the...
I think that's natural, but will get better. Completely get about not being able to go back to the yard though. Easier said than done, but try and stay busy and keep reminding yourself that it was the best decision for Andy, and be proud that you made it for him
I think the other bit of teaching is that you're effectively performing to a (sometimes unwilling) audience, so however tired or worn out you're feeling, you can't just excuse yourself to the bathroom or whatever (not that you can in all jobs!) I think it's unrecognised just how many holidays...
What a stunning boy, and as I've said before he was very lucky to be owned by you and that you were able to make such a self less decision for him, massive hugs to you OP :)