What is it that isn’t working? Could it be fixed? I bought my last pony convinced he was perfect but he really wasn’t so I do understand. A sharer to take the pressure off is an idea. Loaning them out is tricky unless you know the person well.
Lost my first horse aged six. I’d only had her a year. She was a beautiful soul. Biggest regret I never got a photo of her. She was called Gypsy. Sweet girlie.
So sorry you have had this terrible experience. Tragic loss of one so young.
The one good thing about decisions is they can be changed. All the best for your future with or without horses.
I’m a pony patter wannabe. My pony spent like being touched 🤣. He is happily retired and has a peaceful life being a pony.
Other terms I dislike which are sometimes used in a derrogatory fashion are field ornament paddock pet and similar!