I am so very sorry for what happened, how utterly horrific, words just aren't enough.
Be as kind as you can be right now to yourself. You've been through utter hell and this on top of previous trauma.
Other posters have recommended counselling, I personally wouldn't recommend it for...
Purely anecdotal but since taking cannabis based medication, after 10 years of my RA being so aggressive it was uncontrollable, my blood inflammatory markers are now normal.