4 Months Today

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I thought it was 5 until my mum corrected me, I am incapable of counting :rolleyes:
4 months since my beautiful boy was taken away from me.

I sat in his field talking to him today, does this make me crazy?

I had a dream about him last night, I went out to his field and he galloped up to me through the long grass and rested his head on my chest. I stood with him for what seemed like hours until I sat down and then he layed down and I sat next to him running my fingers through his mane and talking to him about all my problems with his head on my lap.

But then he wouldn't get up, I was trying to get him up but he wouldn't he just stayed on the floor. Then he faded away and I was stood there alone.

Up until the last part it seemed so real, I thought he was with me again.

Sorry totally pointless, I'm off to go watch a good chick flick and bury myself in Ben and Jerrys.
 
That's quite odd - I had a similar dream to that when I lost my pony. A few months after I had a dream we were sat on the hill in our field watching the horses when he appeared galloping up towards us looking full of life and sound and just, well, great. Oddly when i woke I felt a sorrt of release and didn't feel so sad.

I don't think you're crazy to talk to him no - if it helps the so be it.
 
He was such a big part of your life, its so hard to stop wanting him to be ok again and for things to be as they were. I can totally understand how you're feeling, its 5 years since my soul mate was PTS and she is never far from my thoughts, although, the old cliche about time healing is true. The love you have for special horses never fades, but the missing of them becomes gentler and less raw.
Thinking of you x
 
No your not crazy at all, I only lost my Taz just over a month ago and I'm still devastated. I look out on his paddock everyday and can see him there looking at me, I can't get him out of my head. It's takes a very long time to get over losing someone special, you carry on thinking of him. I know I will xxx
 
Thanks for the support everyone, hugs much appreciated.

Ladyt25 it's funny how we had similar dreams, maybe its just what we want to happen. I'm dream analysing tomorrow in psychology so will see what it means then, could be interesting
 
Yeah find out - in my dream though I remember it as if it was real but in the dream we saw him as more of a 'ghost' as a it were and he too vanished after galloping to us and we sat and watched the others graze for a while longer.

It's odd as i remember it so well yet it was over 10 years ago now.
 
Big big hugs for you xxxxx

I know how I felt when I lost my beautiful cob, amy - she was and always will be very special to me and although she isn't here in physical form she is still very much in my heart. I have so many happy and funny memories of her and her photos are all over my flat and two of them are the first thing I see every morning when I wake up. I do feel that Bergie was sent to fill the whole a little and although he's officially my best friends she told me from the start that he's as much mine. He is such a character that you can't help but fall in love with him.

I had a dream not that long after loosing amy, it was so real and she looked so so happy and alive, I rode her and kissed her nose (she had the softest most kissable nose) and then she galloped away. I honestly believe it was her telling me that she was fine and happy in horse heaven and I really hope I get to see her again one day xxx
 
ladyt25 said:
Yeah find out - in my dream though I remember it as if it was real but in the dream we saw him as more of a 'ghost' as a it were and he too vanished after galloping to us and we sat and watched the others graze for a while longer.

It's odd as i remember it so well yet it was over 10 years ago now.
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I know what you mean by remembering though as I honestly can't remember dreams but this one was so vivid. It was like the last 4 months had been a nightmare and he was really there. I'll find out though, could be interesting :)

Supertrooper said:
Big big hugs for you xxxxx

I know how I felt when I lost my beautiful cob, amy - she was and always will be very special to me and although she isn't here in physical form she is still very much in my heart. I have so many happy and funny memories of her and her photos are all over my flat and two of them are the first thing I see every morning when I wake up. I do feel that Bergie was sent to fill the whole a little and although he's officially my best friends she told me from the start that he's as much mine. He is such a character that you can't help but fall in love with him.

I had a dream not that long after loosing amy, it was so real and she looked so so happy and alive, I rode her and kissed her nose (she had the softest most kissable nose) and then she galloped away. I honestly believe it was her telling me that she was fine and happy in horse heaven and I really hope I get to see her again one day xxx
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Thank you for this, glad to know I'm not the only person going through it. Your last paragraph put a tear in my eye, I'm sorry for your loss xx
 
Sorry to hear this. It will be 4 weeks tomorrow since I lost my old pony who I had for 7 years. Strangely enough i still feel close to him if I go and stand at the spot where he died, still can't bring myself to walk over that little bit of ground though :(
 
big hugs.... im sat here with tears streaming down my face as I read these stories I too miss my boy loads and just yearn to have a cuddle from him and to tell him again I love him and kiss his face lots....it's been over a year for me now but it's still so raw for me I too have pics of him all over my house he was too special.

your not crazy either hun it's natural to feel like it.... your never alone xx
 
Its soon to be 8months since my sweet 9yo mare Tia was pts. Its still rather raw for me even now. So much still reminds me of her. I think its so hard for me to get over it because she was so young and I cant help thinking if it was somehow my fault that she got a tumor in her chest. Nobody knows what caused it. So I guess i'll never know. I wish we found it sooner too as the first vets to see her thought her symptoms (swallen chest from fluid) was an allergic reaction. The steroids helped reduced it and I even travelled her from Warwickshire to Aberdeenshire then 2 days later the chest swelled up again and she went downhill so quick. I hate to think I put her through so much trauma in her last days. :(
 
And the tears are back :(

It'll be 3 months since starla went to graze in the big paddock in the sky on the 25th of this month...

It sounds silly but the one thing that puts my mind at ease when i think about her, is imagining her grazing next to horses like koko, lucy, dylan... All the much loved horses people have lost that i read about on here. I like the idea that she's all fixed up and surrounded by friends. Utterly stupid i know...

But im a dafty, and it helps.

Hugs to you op x
 
I'm so sorry for everyone who has lost their beloved horse :(

OneInAMillion said:
this has not happened to me yet, however as my old pony gets another day older past 30 i always dread what i might find :(
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Just cherish every single moment you have with him and you know that when his day comes you didn't miss a moment.

Lady La La said:
And the tears are back :(

It'll be 3 months since starla went to graze in the big paddock in the sky on the 25th of this month...

It sounds silly but the one thing that puts my mind at ease when i think about her, is imagining her grazing next to horses like koko, lucy, dylan... All the much loved horses people have lost that i read about on here. I like the idea that she's all fixed up and surrounded by friends. Utterly stupid i know...

But im a dafty, and it helps.

Hugs to you op x
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What a lovely idea, thinking they are all up there looking out for us, I think Koko is all fixed up aswell because when I dreamt of him he was fit and healthy and happy.
Lets hope they are all behaving themselves :)
 
You are not crazy at all. It is only a week since I lost my beautiful mare, and I sleep on a wet pillow every night. I have two small ponies to see to, and it is so hard to see her empty stable after 22 years. At the moment, I am finding it very hard to talk to anyone about her, and have spent most of the evening in tears tonight as my best friend has blocked me on skype in a drunken rage, which is not helping at all.

I wanted to write a tribute to her on here, but I can't bring myself to type the words as it is all too raw at the moment.

All we have is memories, but also the knowledge that we did the best for our horses whilst they were still with us.

xx
 
I read somewhere that if you dream about someone- be it relative or pet if they appear to you in a dream they are telling you that they are watching over you.
 
ffionbj said:
I read somewhere that if you dream about someone- be it relative or pet if they appear to you in a dream they are telling you that they are watching over you.
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I hope thats true. I havent had such a dream about Tia but about 6 weeks or so after my dad died I had a very real dream about him and he was telling me that everything would be ok, he loved me and didnt blame me for anything.
 
You're not crazy for talking to him - lots of people do talk to those they've loved and lost, no matter how many legs they have!

How nice of him to visit you on your anniversary and spent the night curled up with you in the field. What a beautiful gift, to have such a vivid dream 80) I have tears in my eyes at just the thought of it!

Don't get excited about dream analysis in psych though: even Freud spent lots of time working it all out, in the end just to say 'sometimes a cigar is just a cigar' (but without specifying rules for when). I don't think you need any analysis to know what yours meant though 80)
 
Vixen Van Debz said:
You're not crazy for talking to him - lots of people do talk to those they've loved and lost, no matter how many legs they have!

How nice of him to visit you on your anniversary and spent the night curled up with you in the field. What a beautiful gift, to have such a vivid dream 80) I have tears in my eyes at just the thought of it!

Don't get excited about dream analysis in psych though: even Freud spent lots of time working it all out, in the end just to say 'sometimes a cigar is just a cigar' (but without specifying rules for when). I don't think you need any analysis to know what yours meant though 80)
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Freud is certainly an interesting character!
So I found out today if you dream of trees it means you are not having certain needs fulfilled :eek: how he came up with that from tress I'll never know! :p

I dreamed about him again last night, I think he is just on my mind a lot lately. As for the siggy I was missing seeing him there, and I think from now on he'll stay there for a long time :)
 
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