Am I awful to consider euthanasia?

Amelia246

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My 16yo gelding has been diagnosed with severe KS, and bone shave or retirement are the only options. He also has an undiagnosed hip problem that the vets have told me needs a specialist investigation in another part of the country.

Due to this, I have made the decision to retire, as the uncertainty of if surgery will work, and whether this problem with his hip is even fixable. Vets have declared him pasture sound and for the last four months he’s been totally retired. However, I feel he is in more pain than is physically visible, as his behaviour and attitude have been deteriorating for the past 2 years and he’s getting to a point that when he is pushed to do something he doesn’t want to do, he goes airborne and strikes out and is charging at whoever is handling him.

When I say I feel he is in more pain than can be seen, physically he still enjoys running in the field and having a buck, he rolls, lays down easily, can be slower when getting up but nothing too drastic, he sleeps laying down in his stable, he’s eating fine and no ears back when touching or brushing him. But he is anxious, and I’ve started to notice holes in his stable where he’s obviously kicked out, leading me to believe he is very anxious and stressed when I’m not around, but I do see the anxiety in him when I’m there also, he spooks easily now and never used to, and he spins and box walks.

I have tried to move him so he can live out but I can’t get him off the yard in hand or in a box, and he has recently caused minor injury to himself by trying to attempt this.

I am at a loss, and I feel like the worlds most awful person for considering putting him to sleep but I fear his behaviour may only get worse and he’s going to hurt himself or someone else, and I’m not able to afford to keep him any longer due to a change in financial circumstances.

Just as a side note, he’s not been ridden properly for about 2 years prior to diagnosis, so I know this is not him just struggling to adjust with unridden life.
 

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I'm really sorry you're in this situation, it must be very tough.

If you can't get him off the yard, and you are no longer able to afford to keep him, then you've unfortunately got very limited options. I definitely don't think you are awful to consider euthanasia of a horse who is in pain, and is also in a situation where it's very difficult to improve his quality of life. It does sound like he is unhappy.

I definitely wouldn't sell him, and he doesn't sound like he'd be suitable to loan as a companion. Unless you've got e.g. a family member willing to step in and help out with finances for a while, then PTS is the only practical option I can see? That may sound incredibly hard or brutal, and I'm sorry if it does.

It sounds like you have done an awful lot for him, and he has had two years of retirement already, which is more than he would get in many homes.
 

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Thank you all for your comments and kind words, I think most of all I just wanted some reassurance that I’m not an awful human being for considering this. And though it will destroy me, I think this may be the best option for him. I don’t think a charity would take him on, they are in such demand for neglected equines already, and even then I don’t think I would feel right burdening them with his deteriorating health and behaviour. I will be discussing with my vet this week and go from there. <3
 

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Poor you. I'm so sorry that you're in this position. When my horses have been in a similar situation to the one your horse is now in, having fully discussed their current situation, likely prognosis and their recommendations going forwards with my trusted equine vet, and they've recommended euthanasia and explained why, I have always followed their advice.
I'm firmly in the "a week too early, rather than a day too late." camp.
 

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I had a friend this week put down a young horse who has been struggling with health issues for 3 years. Sadly sometimes you have to accept not every horse can retire happily to a field and I think in this country we're lucky that we can make the decision to take away their pain

Never, ever an easy decision but often the best one. I'm sorry you're facing it.
 

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This isn't a thread where you are looking for permission to pts a non rideable horse so you can buy a new one to have fun with, this is you doing what's best for a horse in pain who can't be helped. I'd definitely agree pts in that situation and I'm sorry you are having to go through it but it definitely sounds like the last kindness you can give your horse x
 
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My 16yo gelding has been diagnosed with severe KS, and bone shave or retirement are the only options. He also has an undiagnosed hip problem that the vets have told me needs a specialist investigation in another part of the country.

Due to this, I have made the decision to retire, as the uncertainty of if surgery will work, and whether this problem with his hip is even fixable. Vets have declared him pasture sound and for the last four months he’s been totally retired. However, I feel he is in more pain than is physically visible, as his behaviour and attitude have been deteriorating for the past 2 years and he’s getting to a point that when he is pushed to do something he doesn’t want to do, he goes airborne and strikes out and is charging at whoever is handling him.

When I say I feel he is in more pain than can be seen, physically he still enjoys running in the field and having a buck, he rolls, lays down easily, can be slower when getting up but nothing too drastic, he sleeps laying down in his stable, he’s eating fine and no ears back when touching or brushing him. But he is anxious, and I’ve started to notice holes in his stable where he’s obviously kicked out, leading me to believe he is very anxious and stressed when I’m not around, but I do see the anxiety in him when I’m there also, he spooks easily now and never used to, and he spins and box walks.

I have tried to move him so he can live out but I can’t get him off the yard in hand or in a box, and he has recently caused minor injury to himself by trying to attempt this.

I am at a loss, and I feel like the worlds most awful person for considering putting him to sleep but I fear his behaviour may only get worse and he’s going to hurt himself or someone else, and I’m not able to afford to keep him any longer due to a change in financial circumstances.

Just as a side note, he’s not been ridden properly for about 2 years prior to diagnosis, so I know this is not him just struggling to adjust with unridden life.
I wouldn’t beat your self up about this, always an awful decision to have to make but for both you and the horse sounds like its the right one. :(
 

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This isn't a thread where you are looking for permission to pts a non rideable horse so you can buy a new one to have fun with, this is you doing what's best for a horse in pain who can't be helped. I'd definitely agree pts in that situation and I'm sorry you are having to go through it but it definitely sounds like the last kindness you can give your horse x

Thank you. And I think after this I would give up horses entirely, he’s my absolute heart and it’s going to devastate me, I don’t think I can go through this again if I could ever even afford another horse in the future.
 

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Thank you. And I think after this I would give up horses entirely, he’s my absolute heart and it’s going to devastate me, I don’t think I can go through this again if I could ever even afford another horse in the future.
I don't think you need to feel like you have to make a forever decision now- in 10 years time things may be very different!

You also haven't done anything wrong- he's in pain and you can't do things to improve that because of his behaviour so PTS would have to be a consideration anyway?

I know a few people who've been in this situation in the past- where they had a horse in a situation where a theoretical horse might have been able to enjoy a nice life/recover from an injury etc, but their horse just wasn't coping. You have to (unfortunately) deal with the animal in front of you.

Of course it's devastating, and I wish you all the best.
 

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Aggression towards either humans or another horse is pretty usually the horse saying loud and clear, "I am in pain".

Saw this with my old gel (10yo/trigeminal headshaking) and it prompted me to immediately make "the call" to the knackerman.

Have also observed this with two other horses which were not mine, towards other horses in the herd.

Sorry sweetheart, but it sounds like time to say goodbye. Its never easy, we all know that, but sadly if a horse starts suddenly exhibiting aggressive tendencies then it will usually be pain-related.

Feeling for you. Right now two lovely friends have each lost a horse. One (an oldie) was at my yard; another lost her 5yo same day.
 

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I go further and it’s your duty as his owner to either explore pain relief medication or PTS
IME this behaviour is pain driven and I have experienced this in past .
KS syndrome often deteriorates when the horses fully retire
Too many horses suffer quietly through miserable retirements don’t let yours be one of them
 
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