Am i being silly?

[LauraWheeler]

My pony Lucy has had to retire due to illness. Hunting was our most fav thing ever and we went as often as we could. I have never known a pony love hunting as much as Lucy i know alot of people say there horse love it but Lucy was just amazing. She would go up the front, stay in the middle or go at the back depending on what i wanted, She would stand point like a rock, she would jump anything i pointed her at or would open all gates. She has whipped in several times and rounded up many lost hounds. I could also lead two children on ponies off her and she has hunted on the leadrein herself. I am so sad our hunting days are over and i don't seem to be excited about going anymore. (I have to hunt as part of my job). Hunting was cancelled on sat and it is again on wed and i'm not that bothered realy where as before i would have been devestated. I just feel guilty when i do go and spend the whole time remembering days out with Lucy and it makes me want to cry.
Feel free to tell me i'm just being silly i prob need a good kick up the backside.

 

[ofcourseyoucan]

no yoou just cant beat a brill hunter! you will find another in time............. take care of lucy in her retirement! a good horse to you!!

 

[Clodagh]

I have gone off it a lot since my once-in-a-lifetime horse was PTS. She was amazing - like your Lucy by the sound of things. She never once said no to anything. She was a difficult horse in many ways at home but hunting was her raison d'etre.
Anyway, my new ned is OK, quite passable, but I've never clicked with her like Clodagh. I bought her because she looked similar too - don't ever do that!

 

[LauraWheeler]

Thankyou to you both i'm glad it's not just me i was starting to feel a bit stupid.
Clodagh sorry for your loss your horse sounds like it was just like Lucy. Lucy can be difficult doing enything else. She was very difficult when i bought her 12 years ago and i took her hunting as a kill or cure (it would kill me or cure her) It didn't do ither but we found something we both love.
I hope things will get better in time and i know Lucy would hate for me to stop hunting. I'm just dreading the first time the hunt come passed our house Lucy has jumped out her stable before when hounds unloaded at my old yard and she thought they where going without her. I will shut her in with the top door shut and leave the radio on full blast (thank god we don't have neighbers). i just hope she's not to upset by it all.

 

[cptrayes]

Silly? not at all. I had a fabulous hunter who died aged 6 in 1998. I couldn't bear to buy another horse his size, never mind hunt, for two years. And I didn't hunt again until this year. I just couldn't compare with Basil and his love of big hedges, so I didn't want to go at all.

You will get over it, give yourself time.

 

[JenHunt]

not silly in the slightest. My little welsh cob was awesome out hunting, and when I had to put him out on loan (i'm 5 foot 8 and he was 15hh) I was devastated, not helped by the fact that my next horse hated it. Bobby was pts earlier this year aged 26, but knowing that he taught 5 other little girls about hunting made the whole thing so much easier. If even one of those kids grows up to live for hunting like I do then he did his job.

Don't feel bad about it, take care of her in her retirement, and take each day hunting as it comes. You'll find another horse who;ll do their job as well as Lucy, and you'll be able to remember all the memories with a smile.