Argh! I am sooooooo nervous!!

[bex1984]

Argh

I'm up early because I am too nervous to sleep!!

This afternoon me and Murphy are doing an eventer trial things (dressage, SJ, 'XC' over WH fences) and I am so so so so nervous and actually quite terrified!

I didn't dare go and walk the course yesterday because I knew if I saw it I would talk myself out of doing it

I know I am definitely going to get eliminated - there's just no way I can get Murphy over 23 (23!!!!!! argh!!!) different jumps, it just won't happen.

And I'm panicking that I'll forget my dressage test. And I'll fall off. And Murphy won't load without a big stressful fight. And he'll demolish some of the fences. And we'll get eliminated at the first fence. And I'll fall off in the dressage (which would be mega embarrassing!). And I'll get so hot and bothered trying to persuade him to jump that I'll pass out in the heat.

Oh god.

why am I doing this?!

I'm not jumping until 4:30pm so I have all day to worry about it

Please kick me up the backside and tell me to stop having a breakdown about it and think positive!

 

[DW Team]

Good Luck I am sure it will be fine just go out and have a wonderful day. Do let us know how you get on. Have fun

 

[Tiarella]

Stop being silly

Murphy will be absolutely fine!

I want to see lots of pics!!

 

[Apercrumbie]

It will be fine!! Just think of it as good experience

. He'll probably surprise you and do really well so just keep breathing and keep kicking!!!

 

[bex1984]

Thanks guys! It's just so scary - I think I'll be better once I'm there and I can just get on with it, it's all the waiting around thinking about it that's not good!

 

[samstar]

think positive, sure he'll do it and show you up

 

[MrsMozart]

It will be fun

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Remember, it's horses, even if you were to to do 'something wrong' everyone does as some point, it doesn't really matter.

So, lecture over *straps on pointy toed boot and does a few test swings*, now, go do or I'll let rip

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[kibob]

I sympathise cos I get terrible nerves too. You forgot something off your list of "things that might happen" though....... It might actually go really well and you could really enjoy yourself

Think positive and have fun, Murphy will look after you I'm sure - Good Luck

 

[StarFell]

You'll be absolutely fine, Murphy will look after you!! Good luck, make sure you get plenty of piccies and let us know how you get on

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