bad weekend! Am not a bad person though

[stacey_lou]

Sunday I had a small dressage test just a small local one so no biggie.My mare is still so fresh and so the boards were obviously going to eat her! lol
She started off being a div but napping and not standing still and this was just when I got on! I warmed her up and she went lovely

When I entered the show ring we eventually got in side the boards which was great and we got through the first element great then I felt her tense up and she jumped out side the boards and wouldnt behave! As I could feel my self tense up to I jumped off and said enough was enought as I was scared I was going to loose it with her. Some ppl there were urging me to get back on and continue and I know I have a bad temper anyway so I thought i did the right thing.

They all kept saying just carry on just carry on! but they wouldnt listen so I lost it with them yellled that I didnt wanna fo it and beacuse they had hold of my horse Istormed off!

very juvinile I know but I could feel myself going yet they would take my word for it and leave me be!

Now most ppl there think am a bad person but I thought I did what was best! other then yelling

 

[AmyMay]

There we are then.

 

[JosieSmith]

I have a bad temper too and I'd feel awful if I took it out on my horse so I think you did the right thing getting off before you lost it with her.

Don't mind everyone else, everyone always thinks they know best, maybe next time they'll not push you

 

[Skippydo]

Ooops, stress takes us all in different ways, it's a shame you had such an outburst, things like that stick like mud for a very long time.

Things maybe broken but they can be fixed, maybe you'll go to another show and show them that it was a one off and be able to apologise to those you shouted at.

 

[stacey_lou]

Thanks, sorry this was a really self indulgent post but I had to rant! My friend on the yard came up to me last night gave me a hige hug and told me that she and her daughter would help me with some dressage schooling with the big scary boards lol
told me id be ok shed look after me!

I dont know about some ppl but sometimes just time alone with your horse when your stressed is all you need to make everything ok