Blergh.. awful week

[PinkFairy]

Rumour mill has gone into overdrive, have lost ALL my mates from secondary school, my BEST friend, Michael who is 24 has also had to say his goodbyes as his girlfriend went mental at a rumour that i was sleeping with him! Well.. Michael and me are very close and its very personal so i did not justify myself to the person starting the rumours but lo and behold it was my so called best friend from secondary school! Who went on to charge at me, kick my dog about, throw me against a fence and verbally abuse me infront of lots of traffic so a lovely bloke stopped his car and warned her off but she kept on.. so i walked away etc etc.. Cue a week of drinking non stop from morning til evening sneakily so my parents do not suspect, i am crying til 2am out my window for no apparent reason, imiss my nan who died of cancer and was the one who paid for my first ever riding lesson she loved watching me with horses and sadly didnt live to see me go to college. Anyway i havent ridden for a while, no money either, my parents are no help i have tried talking to them about things, and they dont actually respond, my doctor wont give me anything for feeling depressed and i currently hate my life. On the plus sides, I start work experience in two weeks so YAY back with horses! I am seeing someone who is ALL MINE woohoo! BUt im so upset over losing michael.. he was my best friend, someone i could talk to about ANYTHING in the world..and he looked out for me, he even smacked a bloke for touching me where i did not wish to be touched.. and then the bloke was badmouthing me so michael walloped him.. its hard to say goodbye..

anyway i will shut up.

Hows everyone else

 

[guisbrogal]

oh sweetheart I really feel for you. I hope Michael comes to his senses and manages to explain to his GF.

I no it's not easy but try not to let it get you down. Look forward to your new work experience and immerse yourself in the neddies for now. I am sure this silly girl and her rumours will soon become old hat and everyone will see her for what she is.

But please STOP the drinking. That isn't an answer to anything and will only make you more depressed. I think you really need to try to talk to your parents again and if they won't take you seriously then is there not another aunt or something. Perhaps someone on here that is a bit older and wiser might be able to take you under their wing if they live close by?

If things don't improve then you must go back to your GP and insist he listens to you.

You know where I am if you need a shoulder.

<<<hugs>>>