Ahrena
Well-Known Member
I think I should stop riding Willow, I'm just driving myself insane.
I always think she looks/feels lamer than normal (shes unlevel behind because she was treated for early arthritus 2 years ago, had a bad reaction to it and her hock collapsed or something like that), whenever she's resting that leg I panic, I always feel warmth there isn't there..
Am doing yet another bute test with her to check if it gets better, and I want another vet (completly different place) to give another opinion (3rd one that'll be) of her. I'm terrified it's gonna turn out I should never have been riding her again in the first place, that she gets crippled again then has to be pts and it ends up all my fault.
My mum reckons I'm just doing this all as an excuse not to ride her so we keep having big arguements because of it. She doesn't seem to understand I don't want to ride her incase it hurts her! I was meant to be going show jumping tomorrow but I havn't even ridden today because I thought she looked lamer than usual.
Eurgh..sorry I'm just feeling really upset, I just wish they could frigging talk! Maybe I'm being irrational..I don't know. She seems happy to be ridden, 2 different vets have already said I can do whatever I like with her, no one else every notices she's unlevel unless they look for it. Maybe I'm so paranoid because several lovely people from the internet have taken it upon themselves to attack me for riding her again..
Before when she was in pain she used to kick out when you got on/put the saddle on and always refuse. Now she does none of that except when she has her back out or something, so its easy enough to think "Oh she'd tell me if something was wrong," but would her arthritus before have come on within a month? If not, she must have been in pain but not reacted to it because it wasn't severe enough.
Feel free to tell me I'm being stupid by the way.
I always think she looks/feels lamer than normal (shes unlevel behind because she was treated for early arthritus 2 years ago, had a bad reaction to it and her hock collapsed or something like that), whenever she's resting that leg I panic, I always feel warmth there isn't there..
Am doing yet another bute test with her to check if it gets better, and I want another vet (completly different place) to give another opinion (3rd one that'll be) of her. I'm terrified it's gonna turn out I should never have been riding her again in the first place, that she gets crippled again then has to be pts and it ends up all my fault.
My mum reckons I'm just doing this all as an excuse not to ride her so we keep having big arguements because of it. She doesn't seem to understand I don't want to ride her incase it hurts her! I was meant to be going show jumping tomorrow but I havn't even ridden today because I thought she looked lamer than usual.
Eurgh..sorry I'm just feeling really upset, I just wish they could frigging talk! Maybe I'm being irrational..I don't know. She seems happy to be ridden, 2 different vets have already said I can do whatever I like with her, no one else every notices she's unlevel unless they look for it. Maybe I'm so paranoid because several lovely people from the internet have taken it upon themselves to attack me for riding her again..
Before when she was in pain she used to kick out when you got on/put the saddle on and always refuse. Now she does none of that except when she has her back out or something, so its easy enough to think "Oh she'd tell me if something was wrong," but would her arthritus before have come on within a month? If not, she must have been in pain but not reacted to it because it wasn't severe enough.
Feel free to tell me I'm being stupid by the way.
