Spirit3106
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A bit of background - I've ridden in riding schools for years, however I've never been particularly confident and I always struggled with progressing in my riding. I was having a big confidence knock over the summer, and I saw a really good part loaning opportunity come up (in my area loans are basically non existent, let alone ones suitable for anyone who isn't super advanced). So I thought maybe doing a few months of just working on riding in my own time, and getting the hang of handling general horse care outside of riding, would be a nice change of pace to try.
So far it's been going really well. My part loan is an older guy and he's great in the arena, I've been riding him 2x a week and I've been getting really confident on him. I've had him on loan for about 2.5 months now, and I thought it was time to try hacking him out. I was really excited about it, and I tried him on a very short trip last week and he was fine, just a bit forward on the way home but still responsive.
This weekend, I took him out for a hack again. I did a few minutes in the arena first and he was fine, and he was ok going out, but then another rider passed us and he was napping a bit while they were behind. He was ok when we went up a different road to them, but then once we turned back it all went downhill (I know it's better to do a loop but I wasn't able to do a full loop today). He just got so strong, I tried giving and releasing but it wasn't having any effect. He started jogging which escalated into trotting. I would've dismounted but he was just moving too fast and I was afraid of losing my balance and losing him then.
Then he took off galloping all the way back home (at that point probably about 3-4 mins till we were back) downhill on the concrete road! It's just lucky that there were no oncoming cars. I wasn't going to do a one rein stop but I did a bit of the "pulley" method which helped a bit, and then he stopped at the yard gate. I don't know how I didn't fall off. I dismounted at the entrance but I checked he was ok, then got back on in the arena and did some walk/trot just to keep my confidence.
Now that I'm not in that immediate danger, I just feel so miserable about the whole thing. There's no way I can take him out hacking again, I'm just not strong enough as a rider and it's way too dangerous if he does that again. I was looking forward to having a horse to get to try solo hacking on (which he's capable of with his owner), but I totally blew my chance. It's not the first time something like this has happened either - for some reason, no matter where I go or what horse I ride, if there's any chance a horse will take off, it seems to happen with me. I was doing well at keeping calm up until he started trotting uncontrollably. It feels ridiculous that I couldn't even de-escalate it at that point too.
Now that it's all over and we're both safe again, I just feel embarrassed and disappointed in myself. I've been really doing well otherwise and thought I was finally making a breakthrough with my confidence, but now I just feel upset that I wasn't capable of handling the situation and keeping us both out of it getting that bad.
Does this kind of thing still happen when you become advanced? What could I have done better? I just feel discouraged about the whole thing!
So far it's been going really well. My part loan is an older guy and he's great in the arena, I've been riding him 2x a week and I've been getting really confident on him. I've had him on loan for about 2.5 months now, and I thought it was time to try hacking him out. I was really excited about it, and I tried him on a very short trip last week and he was fine, just a bit forward on the way home but still responsive.
This weekend, I took him out for a hack again. I did a few minutes in the arena first and he was fine, and he was ok going out, but then another rider passed us and he was napping a bit while they were behind. He was ok when we went up a different road to them, but then once we turned back it all went downhill (I know it's better to do a loop but I wasn't able to do a full loop today). He just got so strong, I tried giving and releasing but it wasn't having any effect. He started jogging which escalated into trotting. I would've dismounted but he was just moving too fast and I was afraid of losing my balance and losing him then.
Then he took off galloping all the way back home (at that point probably about 3-4 mins till we were back) downhill on the concrete road! It's just lucky that there were no oncoming cars. I wasn't going to do a one rein stop but I did a bit of the "pulley" method which helped a bit, and then he stopped at the yard gate. I don't know how I didn't fall off. I dismounted at the entrance but I checked he was ok, then got back on in the arena and did some walk/trot just to keep my confidence.
Now that I'm not in that immediate danger, I just feel so miserable about the whole thing. There's no way I can take him out hacking again, I'm just not strong enough as a rider and it's way too dangerous if he does that again. I was looking forward to having a horse to get to try solo hacking on (which he's capable of with his owner), but I totally blew my chance. It's not the first time something like this has happened either - for some reason, no matter where I go or what horse I ride, if there's any chance a horse will take off, it seems to happen with me. I was doing well at keeping calm up until he started trotting uncontrollably. It feels ridiculous that I couldn't even de-escalate it at that point too.
Now that it's all over and we're both safe again, I just feel embarrassed and disappointed in myself. I've been really doing well otherwise and thought I was finally making a breakthrough with my confidence, but now I just feel upset that I wasn't capable of handling the situation and keeping us both out of it getting that bad.