hurricane124
Active Member
I had a really unfortunate incident with a less than ideal riding school last year. I was riding a horse who was too much for me and it bolted with me and I got thrown. Ended up with a broken pelvis.
I'm now mostly healed and cleared to ride again. I've found a lovely local RS and been having a mix of group and private lessons. I desperately want to continue riding but I'm terrified
I replay the fall in my head a lot and I can't help thinking about how much worse it could have been even though that's not particularly productive!
I've been riding a steady RS horse but I feel like I can't trust her. She's doing absolutely nothing wrong but whenever she does anything it spooks me. She nodded her head the other week and it sent me panicking! Last week we went out and in an open field I asked her to trot then panicked because it felt too fast. I keep panicking and forgetting how to ride e.g. folding forward.
I'm getting a bit frustrated because I want to do the things I know I enjoy but then I walk away from lessons feeling like I've been pathetic.
I've done everything practical I can to help me feel safer - the school are aware of my experience and are being fantastic, I've replaced my helmet and bought a body protector which I'm wearing every week (even though I can't help but think I still would have broke my pelvis even if I was wearing it!).
Is this something that gets better with time? I want to enjoy riding again and it's not only affecting my rising but also the rest of my life because I still feel very angry and fixated on what happened.
I'm now mostly healed and cleared to ride again. I've found a lovely local RS and been having a mix of group and private lessons. I desperately want to continue riding but I'm terrified
I replay the fall in my head a lot and I can't help thinking about how much worse it could have been even though that's not particularly productive!
I've been riding a steady RS horse but I feel like I can't trust her. She's doing absolutely nothing wrong but whenever she does anything it spooks me. She nodded her head the other week and it sent me panicking! Last week we went out and in an open field I asked her to trot then panicked because it felt too fast. I keep panicking and forgetting how to ride e.g. folding forward.
I'm getting a bit frustrated because I want to do the things I know I enjoy but then I walk away from lessons feeling like I've been pathetic.
I've done everything practical I can to help me feel safer - the school are aware of my experience and are being fantastic, I've replaced my helmet and bought a body protector which I'm wearing every week (even though I can't help but think I still would have broke my pelvis even if I was wearing it!).
Is this something that gets better with time? I want to enjoy riding again and it's not only affecting my rising but also the rest of my life because I still feel very angry and fixated on what happened.