Dont know what to do.

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I have really bad anxiety and panic attacks, horses are a 10 min drive from my house, and im struggling to even get out the door atm.

I absolutly hate the yard i am on now, i dont like anything about it, the thought of going up there makes me feel physicly sick. I hate this i love my horses and they are literally my everything and popping up there maybe once a month for 5 minutes while having a bad panic attack is not good.

Im having counsilling and we have discovered being a distance away from home eg, not able to get in the car and be home in 2 mins is whats causing the panic.

My mum (who is looking after the horses) wont consider moving them closer to home. The only place she will move them too is another 5 mins journey away and i know i wouldnt be able to get there.

I really dont know what to do, i dont think im ever going to be able to start going back up the yard im at regularly, and then what if i really cant manage another 5 mins journey and stop seeing my horses completely? The 10 min journey to the yard im at now is pushing me to the limit and its not worth the pain/panic i get. I despratly need somewhere closer to home to keep them. But i cant find anything.

Ive been stuck at home since the end of august, and have only seen the horses 5 times. This isnt going to be somthing i can get over quickly and i dont know if i can cope without seeing my horses for much longer.

Sorry if it makes no sense, im just stuck, completely stuck. :(
 
Hugs hun, what a terrible situation to be in.

Is there a yard closer to you? Why is your mum being difficult?

If you can get cover for the horses whilst you are having treatment then maybe that is the best thing, then when you are strong enough it wont matter where they are. You poor thing x
 
Treatments likely to be years, not months :(

Because there are only a few fields locally, and im in no state to be knocking on doors finding out who they belong to, and my mum wont do it. Shes also concerned about them being so close to town :o
 
Ok first thing as you know with these attack is take as much stress and worry out of your life, the yard is compounding the attacks so you need to move.
Ok so the other yard is a bit further away but without the dread of going to the present yard it will calm down the attacks.
I have suffered for over 20 years now with this problem and i have to take tranquillers with me everywhere.
Please try out the new yard it will help and if it does not you may have to look at the possibility of getting to the doctors for medication for help.
Dont be ashamed of getting meds to help i stayed in for nearly 4 years just going to work and horse and nowhere else.
Do not let the attacks take over your life you will miss out on too much.
PM me if you ever wish to talk
There are many on here who also suffer with this problem you are far from alone
 
I understand totally how you feel. For me, having a horse is my reason for getting out ! before that, I was very anxious.

Have you tried Rescue Remedy, and will the GP refer you on to someone so you can get on proper medication ? There is so much help out there, you need to push to get what support you can.

PM anytime for a "chat". (((((((((((((hugs))))))))))) sm xx
 
shysmum said:
I understand totally how you feel. For me, having a horse is my reason for getting out ! before that, I was very anxious.

Have you tried Rescue Remedy, and will the GP refer you on to someone so you can get on proper medication ? There is so much help out there, you need to push to get what support you can.

PM anytime for a "chat". (((((((((((((hugs))))))))))) sm xx
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Miss_bird - have pm'd you.

I did try rescue remedy, didnt seem to help much :( GP refered me to therapy 2 years ago and i only just got a spot :o Theyre unwilling to put me on anti - d's and tranquillisers as im only 16.

I should have seen it coming, first it was school, then work, then anything but the horses. It was only a matter of time i guess :p
 
You poor, poor thing. Have you had a second opinion bout ad"s I do agree you are very young to start on such medication. Have you been to a health shop We have a very good one close by, the owner has unlimited knowledge and totally believes that they work. If you would like me to I can go in and ask him if he can suggest anything. Plz pm me if you need to talk or would like me to get some advice for you. You are not on your own sweetheart, I can assure you of that. xxx
 
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