Dozzie, Slinky and Mrs M - Thankyou

[Bay_Beasty]

Hi,

I just got a Facebook message from Nicki saying you left me a message on here and I thought I had better write something to ease your minds.

I have been through an awful lot recently and I have decided to give up riding for the near future. D is back with me now in his box but I havn't been able to spread him yet as I just don't want to part with him. I have planned where to do it though and I will let you know when I do. I miss him so much, every day I have to face his absense from my life and I have to look at his empty box every day and it breaks my heart. Twiggy is doing well but she is going to a new home on monday. I have just done the agreement and I couldnt face work today due to it. I don't want her to go but I also know that I am not giving her the life I promised her when we rescued her, and I know that deep down she needs to be with a family that love and adores her where she can play with other horses all day not just half the day.

I have not ridden since D died, I just can't do it. I went to see NickiRhia's new ride on Thursday and she is gorgeous, but that was the first time I was able to get the courage up and go and deal with horses. I went to help out at Highclere on the monday and it nearly killed me, but watching Mary King go round on Imperial Cavalier made the pain worthwhile.

I never thought a horse could do this to you but D was my best friend as well as the best horse I will EVER own and it feels like I have lost a part of myself. I have been really lucky in the fact that I have made a couple of amazing friends at work through the whole process who have really really helped and who I owe so much. They have let me be me again and I am now beginning to feel like a whole person once again instead of an empty shell.

I miss this forum a lot and I miss hearing all your updates and all your pictures and I even miss the arguments and the trolls

. I hope that I will be able to come back on here with time. I go onto Facebook and awful lot so if you want to add me on there, the link is in my signature.

Thanks again for the thoughts and I hope this post has helped.

Sending you all lots of love

Bay_beasty

xx

 

[Eira]

Glad you are holding up chick , I can't think of anything else to say but to say I am glad you are ok

xxxxxx

 

[JosieSmith]

I don't know your story but I thought I'd say that what you have written is beautiful, you obviously loved D very very much. The grief you feel will never fully go away but in time you will be able to think of D and smile.

Sending you hugs and sympathies xx

 

[Darkly_Dreaming_Dex]

(((HUGS)))

 

[f_s_]

(((hugs))) You will feel better in time, but you won't forget D. I hope that you will be able to come back and chat to us all very soon. Take care x

 

[sexyspev]

Keep your chin up hun... one day you will feel better... masses of hugs xxx

 

[Hippona]

(((((((((hugs hun))))))))))

 

[Slinkyunicorn]

One day at a time - you'll get there.

Lots of hugs

Hope you feel up to coming back one day soon (we''l keep a hot chocolate ready and waiting

)

xxx

 

[MrsMozartletoe]

As ever, hugs hun.

 

[dozzie]

((((((((((hugs))))))))))))


Dxxx