barkinghorse
Well-Known Member
As some of you know, i lost Jess a couple of weeks ago.
Still got William though and i thought that now i would go all out and get him working properly, as i felt we were stuck with each other.
Both of us have become nervous wrecks!!
My confidence has hit an all time low because he has become spooky and unmanageable, the old "feel like he's cooking something" nerves have come back and he's gone back to walking into fences rather than turning or standing when i ask.
I have a lesson this afternoon and i feel like cancelling it because my hearts not in it and my nerves are shredded, it's a new instructor and i worry she will push me too hard.
I really miss Jess and now i feel the fun aspect of riding has gone. As horrible as it sounds, i can't help being bitter over the fact that out of the two of them, why did i have to lose her?
I want to cut my loses and run but like i said before, we are stuck with each other.
Jo xx
Still got William though and i thought that now i would go all out and get him working properly, as i felt we were stuck with each other.
Both of us have become nervous wrecks!!
My confidence has hit an all time low because he has become spooky and unmanageable, the old "feel like he's cooking something" nerves have come back and he's gone back to walking into fences rather than turning or standing when i ask.
I have a lesson this afternoon and i feel like cancelling it because my hearts not in it and my nerves are shredded, it's a new instructor and i worry she will push me too hard.
I really miss Jess and now i feel the fun aspect of riding has gone. As horrible as it sounds, i can't help being bitter over the fact that out of the two of them, why did i have to lose her?
I want to cut my loses and run but like i said before, we are stuck with each other.
Jo xx