Feeling a bit sorry for myself :(

emma.is

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Long story short, horse has had back problems and has had three weeks off. After the all clear from the back lady I bring horsey back into work.

Sunday he was a nutter. Spooking, bolting, bucking, kicking out. No worries. I just laughed it off. Typical nutter pony!

Yesterday I lunged him first and jumped on. Was good ish. Great improvement on Sunday. But still spooky.

Today I lunged him and got on. Spooked as soon as I was on. Bucking, bolting, leaping in the air. Worked him in as normal. After the third ish spook I was feeling a knot of nervousness in my stomach. He kept being naughty and soon I was riding 10 meter circles sobbing my eyes out in an attempt to stop him from bolting. I had to get off after a huge spook and a flying buck. Stood in the arena shaking and crying. Then sat in my tackroom for about an hour crying.

I don't know what's wrong with me. I never get nevy! Sorry just needed to let it all out.

Plus side is he didn't spook at the jump wings which he usually does...
 
Poor you. Sounds like a really nasty knock to your confidence, and very frightening. :(

Have you got other people to help you with your horse? Sounds like you could do with a few a few calm, experienced folk around to help you get over this.
 
Having a lesson with my instructor tonight. She's the Yard Owner too so very easy to find and sort out lessons for the little brat!

I have no idea what's wrong with me, I've got nerves of steel :\
 
Aw so sorry. I know what you mean as my confidence can be fragile at the best of times. I think when it means so much to you it affects you more. Just take it a day at a time and build your confidence up slowly - when I had a fall off my bolting gelding(uncharacteristic behaviour) I started off just walking round the arena a few times then getting off while the going was good then built up to trot and canter. It's not easy and I am still building up confidence with hacking but we are getting there.

PS - obviously worth getting his back checked again and ruling out pain as a possiblity for his behaviour.
 
Poor you, it's often not nice bringing them back into work after time off.

Was he very fit before the time off? Is he having plenty of turnout?

We had a this sort of behaviour bringing my daughter's pony back after 8 weeks box rest, the vet said that she was to be ridden out on a hard surface in straight lines, ie no school work or lunging. Seeing our lovely, sensible, bombproof mare leaping about in the road with 15 year old daughter on board, was not pleasant & i could tell that vet obviously didn't have children of his own!!!!
I had to see another vet (who DID have children!!!) who gave me some ACP to take the edge off the mare for a few days. She did settle down but it was months of walking out & whenever she got really bored of it she could put in some impressive fly bucks just to liven things up.

I cut out all hard feed bar a handful of fast fibre & handful pure feeds 'easy'. I found that turning her out for an hour before she's ridden also helped. Now she's back having longer more exciting hacks & the odd canter she is almost back to her old self.

I hope that you boy improves soon. Good luck.
 
Aw so sorry. I know what you mean as my confidence can be fragile at the best of times. I think when it means so much to you it affects you more. Just take it a day at a time and build your confidence up slowly - when I had a fall off my bolting gelding(uncharacteristic behaviour) I started off just walking round the arena a few times then getting off while the going was good then built up to trot and canter. It's not easy and I am still building up confidence with hacking but we are getting there.

PS - obviously worth getting his back checked again and ruling out pain as a possiblity for his behaviour.


Thank you :( Having a lesson tomorrow for a bit of back up. Hope you get back to normal soon :') xxx
 
Poor you, it's often not nice bringing them back into work after time off.

Was he very fit before the time off? Is he having plenty of turnout?

We had a this sort of behaviour bringing my daughter's pony back after 8 weeks box rest, the vet said that she was to be ridden out on a hard surface in straight lines, ie no school work or lunging. Seeing our lovely, sensible, bombproof mare leaping about in the road with 15 year old daughter on board, was not pleasant & i could tell that vet obviously didn't have children of his own!!!!
I had to see another vet (who DID have children!!!) who gave me some ACP to take the edge off the mare for a few days. She did settle down but it was months of walking out & whenever she got really bored of it she could put in some impressive fly bucks just to liven things up.

I cut out all hard feed bar a handful of fast fibre & handful pure feeds 'easy'. I found that turning her out for an hour before she's ridden also helped. Now she's back having longer more exciting hacks & the odd canter she is almost back to her old self.

I hope that you boy improves soon. Good luck.


Unfortunately only allowed a few hours a day until ground improves :( It's just bad timing with him being off and the time of year. Glad your horse is back to normal :) I know it's terrifying isn't it! Must be even worse watching and not being able to do anything xxx
 
There is nothing wrong with you. You are human arn't you? It is only natural to feel scared when faced with danger and a horse or pony fly bucking, bolting, spinning etc is dangerous. Don't beat yourself up. Get some good help and take your time.
 
At least you had more common sense than me! You dismounted before you could fall/be thrown...wish I had done that on Sunday;)
 
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