Feeling a bit strange today - sorry a bit of a sad post

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Today it is 10 years since William my big coloured 4 year old was PTS and am feeling a bit down.
It feels a bit wierd, normally I dont get this upset, its more a case of a couple of days before or after I sort of remember and feel a bit sad then it passes but this has been building up for a few days. Noone I can talk at work to so hope nobody means if I ramble on about him for a bit.
Think being at Cheshire show and seeing all the coloured might have brought this one, didn't have coloured class at Cheshire when I had William but it would have been something we would have aims for, that and the CHAPs class at HOYS.
He was a gentle giant at 17.3hh, no trouble to deal with, he coped with having a fractured cannon bone and being in a stable for 4months with no other horses around (was only place we could find at time). Think thats one of the reasons we bonded so well.
He was extremely easy to break and had a canter to die for. Hacked out perfectly apart from his aversion to cows. He had won his first dressage and the best gelding at the NW regional CHAPS show just before he was taken ill, he was a proper superstar in the making.
He became poorly on a Saturday morning, seems unbalanced, was falling in during my lesson however we put it down to him being so young. However he then walked into the stable door and seem to need to use the wall to stay up right I decided something was wrong and called the vet out.
Vet was brilliant did everything she could think of, tests etc but we couldn't work out what was wrong. Wont go into great details as too distressing but by late Sunday night he couldn't stand up at all and first thing Monday morning I made the decision to have him put to sleep.
He went to sleep with his head on my lap and was buried in the bottom of the field.

I have been lucky to have had 3 super horses since him including my current B who strangely enough is exactly the same age Will would have been now but Will will always be special to me. In fact that was his show name Will Be (named as everyone thought he 'will be' something special one day, never makeup show names after a boozy afternoon in the pub
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Sorry for the long winded post, thanks for reading if you got this far. Wasnot my intention to make anyone feel sad, just need to reminise a little.
 
Its good to be able to talk about your loss. When i first lost my boy found it very hard to talk about it, but now i find it good to talk about him and my special memories.

He sounds like a super lad ((((((((hugs))))))))))
 
Sometimes its good to reminice a bit. It is good you can look back at him and smile, think of what he taught you and appreciate him for everything he was.

I lost a horse 2 years ago to acute grass sickness and still get teary eyed when I remember him.
 
((HUGS))
It will be 5 years tomorrow since my old girl was PTS (Sov in my sig) It was only a combination of old age & arthritis & it was time, but the last few days she has been in my thoughts so much.
So have a sympathetic hug
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I'm the same about my old boy (you only have to look at my posts to see that -I talk about him more than my current one!) He died 4 years ago last April and this year it affected me more than any of the others, so I understand how you feel. I think other things going on in my life were getting me down a bit so it affected me more, maybe that's the same for you? He sounds like a lovely boy!
 
Thank you for the post - I think it is very important to remember friends past and it got me thinking about my first horse, a TB ex-racer who took on this green kid straight out of the riding school and taught her everything she knew. He went naturally, in his sleep, 13 years ago, at the age of 21 (he was the same age as me, so it felt like I'd lost a twin!).
RIP Sun Brilliance
RIP William - he was a lucky boy to have such a loving home during his lifetime
 
Thanks to everyone for their kind words, I think sometimes only horse people can understand the loss of a horse is often very similar to the loss of a family member or very close friend.

Flicker thats a lovely story, sometimes horses teach us more than we teach them.

I had lost my confidence quite badly before i got him and he helped me so much, like I said before we had a real bond. I remember my OH talking about losing your nerve with someone and he mentioned me. When the person asked how i got it back, OH replied "bought an unbroken 2 year old
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Sounds a bit like the grief my girlfriend is going through just now. She lost her only horse in February and was really upset (she'd had him for 22 years, he was already 8 when she got him). Don't know if I could ever fully understand the bond as I'm not horsey at all but taking her to Hickstead to cheer her up. I'm under orders (from her) not to let her get another one though I think she's having second thoughts.

Sorry to hear of your loss.
 
I am just the same. It is 10 years now since we lost our dear "Jack" I always think about him, the fun we had and how much he did for both myb son and I. He was a true "mother/son"share horse and he would just go to whatever level was needed depending on who was riding him. Like he would be really up for Xc/SJ for my son, but would give me a super hack out or dressage test. He also would be right up in front on the hunting field one day and the next he would be at the back escorting another child on a lead rein pony.
 
Do not feel bad, we all have to go through it, and I hope when it has to happen to me I can also let it all out.

Peperrino, that is lovley that you understand your OH's feelings, unlike my other half who would be glad to see him go for hamburgers
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, too bad my bobbo makes me happy, and his time will come all too soon.

Talk about it all you like pinkwellies, I do not think you ever really get over it
 
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