Feeling a little blue...

[Pixxie]

I've been absent here for some time but just looking for a little reassurance that it all gets easier. As some of you may or may not know, there are old threads about it my boy Teddy went through hell and back healthwise over the past year and 2 months ago he went bilaterally lame behind and subsequently in front also at which point we decided putting him through more tests and more trial and tribulation was no longer fair and made the decision to say goodbye and sleep tight to my darling angel boy. If it wasn't for him I wouldn't still be riding or be able to have the new mare I recently purchased. I owe him everything and miss him so desperately its the way it creeps up that I hate....does the creeping stop at somepoint? I know its going to take a long time but I want to be able to look at my photos and memories of him and not cry one day Sleep tight sweet Teddy boy x

 

[charliecrisps]

Mine had to be put down a year on Friday.

I still cry, i still miss him. Ive got a 'new' one and my mare still... they just will never compare to the bond we had. Unfortuantly this creeps up at strange times.... and people dont understand how i can still get upset!!

I owe lots of my happiness to him. Id give anything to get him back

 

[Moomin1]

Of course it will hurt now, but it will get better given time, I promise.

My old boy who I'd grown up with and had for ten years when I was a child was pts at 40yrs when I was 19. I held him whilst he was pts and it was the most heartbreaking moment for me when he went. He was my childhood best friend and he made me who I am today in many ways.

I spent a year or two not being able to think about him or even look at his pics without feeling so lost, but eventually you find that you start to smile and laugh at the pics of them - remembering naughty and funny things they did - and it becomes so easy from then.

I swore the day he died that I would never love or have the same bond with a horse ever again. After an 11 year break I got my current mare who I've had for 2 yrs now, and I love her every ounce as much. I don't think the exact bond will ever be recreated, because I was a child when I had my old pony, so different now, but I love her so much.

Chin up OP and take it as it comes. Focus on your new horse and don't pressurise yourself to feel the same way about this one just yet - it will all come in time.