Feeling guilty.....what to do?

[Field04]

Just don't know what to do. Since the summer I just do not have any inclination to go out on a hack. My horse is in a lovely big field, but I am only lunging him and riding him in the field a couple of times a week.

I have started running again, so am training 4 times a week to build my fitness back up to start doing some 10k runs. Have also just got a puppy, she is too small to coming running for the moment so am having to walk her twice a day, plus don't want to be out too much with her just stuck at home. So with one thing and another horse seems to be coming last as I just don't have the energy to hack out, dealing with all the spooky and jogging etc. But just feel so guilty, have even thought about selling as don't think its fair to him. Would he be better with someone else? Maybe when I get back to my lessons next month and he is back at a club I will feel differently.

Am also looking for a sharer but not found one yet. Just feeling guilty and blue!!

 

[Honey08]

Be honest, do you think its because you are so busy, or because you are a bit worried about riding him due to his spooking etc?

It won't do him any harm to sit in the field. Wait until he is back with the others at the club (I'm presuming thats some sort of yard/livery) and see how you feel then.. If you still feel like that, give yourself a break and sell him.

 

[misswitch2]

i reckon you'll find a bit more motivation when your lessons start again, and you go back to the club.

I (like most people on here i'm sure) have lots on my plate and i find that i focus on one area at a time. e.g, if i am working towards a big show, i'll spend more time on the horse, and less time on other things....and then when i have a big deadline at work, i'll spend less time on the horse and more time at work....

you can't be everywhere at once, there's only so many hours in the day!!

 

[KS1]

Don't despair, at least you get to ride, lunge adnd see your horse a few times a week, I am in the same position as you.

I ended up in hospital last December and was there for 3 months with two collasped lungs and had 6 operations, then when I came out I was housebound for a long time. Now today I am on 24/7 oxygen, need a wheelchair to get about though for very short distances I can use a cane though I get tired very quickly. I have to have a lung transplant otherwise I only have a few years.

What keeps me going is my two dogs (Chihuahua's) and my two horses. I manage taking the dogs out with my mobility scooter though some days I can't manage that. I don't get to see my horses every day and even on days I do get to see them all I can do is that, look at them.

The days I get to take out my dogs or play with my horses is a bonus and though I do feel guilty on days when I am immoblie I cuddle my dogs and comfort them. My partner tends the horses or the YO does.

I have to pace each day to how I am feeling, on a good day I tend to do too much then I am ill again but that is the person I am.

Yes I have many days when I feel my horses are not getting enough from me but then I realise that horses don't think like we do. They have each other and as long as they have grazing and water they seem genuinely happy.

So don't feel bad about yourself, you have no need to feel guilty, at least your horse is well looked after and healthy.

Cheers