MarniL
Well-Known Member
Not sure if this is the right place for this, sorry if it's not.
I'm generally quite a solitary rider; for various reasons I prefer it to just be me and my horse. Of course there are times when I wish I was more social and had friends to ride with, but I keep holding myself back because I always feel like people are watching me and judging my riding and talking about me behind my back. I'm quite an anxious and paranoid person by nature and I'm trying to work on it but of course it's not a quick fix. Maybe it's just me, but I feel like equestrians have a tendency to be a bit, for lack of better words, bitchy and two-faced? Whenever I have to ride in front of people it can feel like the nine years of experience just completely go out the window! I compare myself to others constantly. Just wondering, and almost hoping, that I'm not the only one who feels like this?
I'm generally quite a solitary rider; for various reasons I prefer it to just be me and my horse. Of course there are times when I wish I was more social and had friends to ride with, but I keep holding myself back because I always feel like people are watching me and judging my riding and talking about me behind my back. I'm quite an anxious and paranoid person by nature and I'm trying to work on it but of course it's not a quick fix. Maybe it's just me, but I feel like equestrians have a tendency to be a bit, for lack of better words, bitchy and two-faced? Whenever I have to ride in front of people it can feel like the nine years of experience just completely go out the window! I compare myself to others constantly. Just wondering, and almost hoping, that I'm not the only one who feels like this?
I'm afraid it's usually a case of just because you're paranoid doesn't mean they aren't bitching about you. However, there is absolutely no reason at all why you should care what they think of you, provided your horses are well cared for.