Cash
Well-Known Member
Some of you may know i am currently in between horses and yards- i still have my old boy, at my old yard where i have been for several years, and i now also have new boy on trial at quite posh eventing/livery yard (where am likely to keep new one especially at first).
At the old yard, mainly a polo yard, i know and love everyone, everyone is friendly and we all get on so well- livery is not great (owners are crooks
) but people all lovely, and i know all the horses etc and am trusted to ride and stuff.
New yard, everyone has been lovely, and facilities excellent etc, but i really, really don't feel like i fit in
i am the only person who wears jeans to ride, doesn't have a hacking 'program' etc.. I really want to have a crack at eventing, and this place seems ideal to do so.
Yesterday, was asked to go to a polo tournament with old yard (which i looove doing, i love tournaments) and had to say no, as had to go ride horse on trial..texted friend from old yard tonight asking when she wanted to ride tomorrow,to find that she went to tournament today, and was planning on going tomorrow as well without telling me. She said 'oh sorry, thought you had revision'. Texted YO who said of course, come tomorrow, so am doing that- but am v upset that friend was planning on not telling me, and me turning up to an empty yard tomorrow...
I am not angry at friend for going today, i would have done but could not, but now just can't shake the feeling that old yard people are moving on without me, and i haven't yet been accepted into new yard.
at 15 the social aspect of the whole riding thing means a lot to me, and it sounds very very selfsh, but i hate the thought of them all having fun without me while i clean my tack and work on my transitions, whilst starting from the very bottom surrounded by v experienced, classy people who i am not one of
Sorry for huge length.
At the old yard, mainly a polo yard, i know and love everyone, everyone is friendly and we all get on so well- livery is not great (owners are crooks
New yard, everyone has been lovely, and facilities excellent etc, but i really, really don't feel like i fit in
Yesterday, was asked to go to a polo tournament with old yard (which i looove doing, i love tournaments) and had to say no, as had to go ride horse on trial..texted friend from old yard tonight asking when she wanted to ride tomorrow,to find that she went to tournament today, and was planning on going tomorrow as well without telling me. She said 'oh sorry, thought you had revision'. Texted YO who said of course, come tomorrow, so am doing that- but am v upset that friend was planning on not telling me, and me turning up to an empty yard tomorrow...
I am not angry at friend for going today, i would have done but could not, but now just can't shake the feeling that old yard people are moving on without me, and i haven't yet been accepted into new yard.
Sorry for huge length.
