Feeling sorry for myself

[MotherOfChickens]

It's time I think, that we have our old boy PTS. He's gone down hill in the last week (back end) and lost more weight and worse, isn't really into doing very much other than sleeping. Really thought I would be handling it better with an animal that's at the end of a good (I hope) reasonably long life for his size and breed.

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[Fiona]

I'm sorry MoC x x x

I hope you have someone at home to give you a real hug rather thn just a cyber one....

Fiona

 

[MotherOfChickens]

thanks-I am at work and trying hard not to dissolve regularly! OH is working from home to keep him company today.

 

[Chiffy]

I let my 16 year old go last week, probably in a similar condition. In the end, although she was stoical I felt she didn't need to go on and I owed it to her to let her go.
I was surprised how upset I have been as I should have been prepared that the end was approaching. But it makes no difference , you love them and want them to be with you forever.
I am gradually remembering her younger days and feeling a little better.
Do it, I will be thinking of you xx

 

[Sprout]

I really feel for you - I had to let my old Dobie go a few months back, and although it was deepy upsetting I knew she had had enough and I was so thankful I could give her a peaceful and dignified end. My thoughts are with you. Xx

 

[The Fuzzy Furry]

MOC, really sorry to read this, am sending you a hug, its a hard decision but at least you can make that choice xx

 

[MotherOfChickens]

thanks all-tomorrow is the day.

 

[MotherOfChickens]

I let my 16 year old go last week, probably in a similar condition. In the end, although she was stoical I felt she didn't need to go on and I owed it to her to let her go.
I was surprised how upset I have been as I should have been prepared that the end was approaching. But it makes no difference , you love them and want them to be with you forever.
I am gradually remembering her younger days and feeling a little better.
Do it, I will be thinking of you xx

thankoyu, sorry for your loss x

 

[Mister Ted]

I am in a similar situation with my 15 yr old terrier.I keep telling myself Ive been blessed with many happy years with him but its still hard to think about life without him.My last terrier was 18 when she was PTS.and it took me a week to get it together to have the vet come out to the house .The comforting thing was I knew when the time was right and my dog "told" me life wasnt fun anymore.I gave her the best life I could and she was the most devoted and loyal companion.Two weeks or so grieving after her death I was ready to get another rescue dog to give love to. Its the circle of life and you will be alright.

 

[MurphysMinder]

It's the worst part of owning and loving our pets. Try and take some comfort in the fact he has had a wonderful life and you are giving him a dignified end. I will be thinking of you tomorrow x

 

[The Fuzzy Furry]

Thinking of you today MOC xx

 

[Bellasophia]

Stay strong...so very sorry for your loss.

 

[Luci07]

So sorry. I know people mean well when they ask the age.. and then say it was a good age for that dog but it really doesn't help. Try to build a montage in your mind of the really good times and not the end, I did find that helped. I found it was the little things that tripped me up, so 6 weeks on, Lady TPT's collar is still hanging up, her last vet apt still on the board. Big hugs, try to take a little comfort that people on here do genuinely understand what you are going through.

 

[MotherOfChickens]

thanks everyone x

 

[Cinnamontoast]

Thinking of you {{{hugs}}}

 

[Clodagh]

So sad.

 

[MotherOfChickens]

thank you everyone-have to admit, its hit me harder than I thought it would. Much harder than with the last one tbh, not sure why. For the first time when having anything of mine PTS, I was second guessing myself. I think I am always early rather than late with the process but feel terribly guilty and unsure about this one. The vet and OH agreed totally though.

 

[Mince Pie]

I'm so sorry MoC, it's always hard to make the call and (perhaps just me?) you feel a little like you are playing God. I hope you will feel better soon x

 

[Fiona]

So sorry MoP...

I'm sure you made the right decision as everyone was in agreement

x x x

Fiona

 

[ponyparty]

Oh no very sorry to hear this. Bloomin pets, give us so much joy and fun, and then they have to go and break our hearts! I'm sure you've done the right thing though, don't beat yourself up. Better a day too early than too late. Pets are fortunate that they are allowed this mercy. Thinking of you x

 

[Alec Swan]

It was H Frank Wallace who wrote, in Happier Years; I sometimes wonder if the pleasure of owning dogs is worth the pain of parting.

I'm not alone in understanding your sense of loss, it's so horribly 'empty', isn't it? Just a blank and horrible nothing-ness and nothing that anyone says can erase any aspect of it. There seems little point in supporting your responsible attitude in doing what was right, because that won't help either, I do understand.

Time will eventually have you find an acceptance. Thinking of you.

Alec. x

 

[MotherOfChickens]

thanks everyone-OH has just put me right. We might have been able to keep him going another week or so but at least he went after one last walk in the sunshine, with one last warning bark at the neighbour's quad and collies (collies were his nemesis, never did work out why!).

 

[Thistle]

thanks everyone-OH has just put me right. We might have been able to keep him going another week or so but at least he went after one last walk in the sunshine, with one last warning bark at the neighbour's quad and collies (collies were his nemesis, never did work out why!).

Nothing worse than leaving it a day too late. Sounds a wonderful friend.

 

[Emilieu]

Sorry for your loss MoC. He was beautiful xx

 

[freckles22uk]

Sorry for your loss, Im sure Im going to be going through the same thing before the year is out with my old mastine.