gothdolly
Well-Known Member
I have always been a worrier, but since my mare died (at the age of 31) in December, following an infection that just would not get better (she had cushings) i have got worse and worse, till I have ended up a neurotic bag of nerves about our 3 remaining horses (two of mine, one of mum's).
I feel like I would only be happy if I could stand in their field all day, watching for injuries and picking up poo as it fell. I have them on lots of supplements, and spend my leisure time reading veterinary manuals. Forget any time for riding, I am too busy scouring the field for ragwort etc...
Today I refused to go on holiday with my husband and 3 year old son because I am scared to leave my horses (what if one gets injured or ill when I away?).
It does not help that all 3 horses are "complicated", my TB x ID is lame (had the vet today) my 20 year old Appy x connemara is constantly borderline laminetic almost all the time despite his very strict regime (he also has cushings symptoms) and my mother's horse also has long term health problems.
So, my question is - does anyone else feel like this... and if you do, or have done in the past.... and how do you get some perspective back into your life? I think a large amount of it is guilt from having my mare PTS. I have just about talked myself into going on holiday again now, but I know I will be a nervous wreck, even leaving them with competant people...
thanks in advance ..
Cassandra
I feel like I would only be happy if I could stand in their field all day, watching for injuries and picking up poo as it fell. I have them on lots of supplements, and spend my leisure time reading veterinary manuals. Forget any time for riding, I am too busy scouring the field for ragwort etc...
Today I refused to go on holiday with my husband and 3 year old son because I am scared to leave my horses (what if one gets injured or ill when I away?).
It does not help that all 3 horses are "complicated", my TB x ID is lame (had the vet today) my 20 year old Appy x connemara is constantly borderline laminetic almost all the time despite his very strict regime (he also has cushings symptoms) and my mother's horse also has long term health problems.
So, my question is - does anyone else feel like this... and if you do, or have done in the past.... and how do you get some perspective back into your life? I think a large amount of it is guilt from having my mare PTS. I have just about talked myself into going on holiday again now, but I know I will be a nervous wreck, even leaving them with competant people...
thanks in advance ..
Cassandra