Ceifer
Well-Known Member
Sorry this is a woe is me thread.
I lost my horse just under two months ago. I had him just over a year. If I'm honest I knew there were problems - he was nappy out hacking and had a very weak back end that never really improved with correct working. Two vets later and a diagnosis of wobblers (long story). He deteriorated very quickly and it was decided that it was the kindest thing to do.
I've been utterly bereft ever since. He was my best friend and the nicest horse you'd ever wish to meet.
The kind owners at the livery yard are letting me loan one of their daughters horses and have been utterly lovely throughout. They encourage me to treat him as my own and he's a fantastic little horse. But he's not mine.
This is the pathetic part. I can't have children and my old horse was like my baby. Yes yes I know he shouldn't have been and it's not like I mollycoddled him like a child. But he was my responsibility and I cared for him.
My partner has also been very understanding throughout the hell endured with making the decision. But he's also of the opinion that with the new horse things have slotted back into place and I can carry on as was.
I think part of his thoughts were a bit of a lack of understanding how much I did love my horse as most of the time I owned him we had problems, he wasn't a cheap horse and I'm supposed to be an experienced horsewoman who ended up choosing a 'duff' horse.
He has two grown up children from a previous relationship which works brilliantly as there's no pressure on me with regards to not being able to have kids.
I've spoken to him about it but he still doesn't really see how much it's hurting. I'm not ready for a new horse just yet and I'm contemplating saving for an Iberian (they aren't blooming well cheap) but it'll take me at least a year if not longer.
Don't really know where this is going and if you've got this far we'll done. Has any body else experienced this? Feel like a mad woman.
I lost my horse just under two months ago. I had him just over a year. If I'm honest I knew there were problems - he was nappy out hacking and had a very weak back end that never really improved with correct working. Two vets later and a diagnosis of wobblers (long story). He deteriorated very quickly and it was decided that it was the kindest thing to do.
I've been utterly bereft ever since. He was my best friend and the nicest horse you'd ever wish to meet.
The kind owners at the livery yard are letting me loan one of their daughters horses and have been utterly lovely throughout. They encourage me to treat him as my own and he's a fantastic little horse. But he's not mine.
This is the pathetic part. I can't have children and my old horse was like my baby. Yes yes I know he shouldn't have been and it's not like I mollycoddled him like a child. But he was my responsibility and I cared for him.
My partner has also been very understanding throughout the hell endured with making the decision. But he's also of the opinion that with the new horse things have slotted back into place and I can carry on as was.
I think part of his thoughts were a bit of a lack of understanding how much I did love my horse as most of the time I owned him we had problems, he wasn't a cheap horse and I'm supposed to be an experienced horsewoman who ended up choosing a 'duff' horse.
He has two grown up children from a previous relationship which works brilliantly as there's no pressure on me with regards to not being able to have kids.
I've spoken to him about it but he still doesn't really see how much it's hurting. I'm not ready for a new horse just yet and I'm contemplating saving for an Iberian (they aren't blooming well cheap) but it'll take me at least a year if not longer.
Don't really know where this is going and if you've got this far we'll done. Has any body else experienced this? Feel like a mad woman.