trundle
Well-Known Member
I shared and then virtually loaned my lovely Moose for nearly 18 months, until I finally accepted that she was far too much horse for me, and that I couldn't actually ride one side of her. She was a very kind mare but with a bit of a mad side when ridden and i just wasn't an effective enough rider to ride her safely.
So, i stopped loaning her (and she promptly got herself a terrible injury that has taken her out of action ever since, which just compounds the guilt i feel), and looked for a more suitable horse to have on loan. I had one bad experience through over-estimating my abilities *ouch*, and now i have my lovely, lovely Ella on loan, who has done wonders for my confidence in just the last two months.
Ella is EXACTLY the right horse for me. She's 15.2hh, not wide but not fine, if that makes sense. She's very sensible, never bombs off or gets strong, but she isn't a plod either. She's starting to get to know me, and i can see that she trusts me as her rider as well. I think her personality just "clicks" with mine, and i love riding her, and feel quite attached to her emotionally.
I went back to my old yard yesterday, to visit the Moose, and while it was lovely to cuddle her and make a fuss of her, I didn't feel the same attachment to her that I used to feel. I cried my eyes out over that horse dozens of times, because i was so worried about her, but now although i am still worried about her, i didnt feel that huge tug of concern for her that I used to.
Am I just shallow? That horse was my life for 18 months, but it seems that as soon as I get another horse i switch my affection to that one and forget the Moose. She doesnt have anyone to fuss her at the moment, and she loves being fussed so much.
So, i stopped loaning her (and she promptly got herself a terrible injury that has taken her out of action ever since, which just compounds the guilt i feel), and looked for a more suitable horse to have on loan. I had one bad experience through over-estimating my abilities *ouch*, and now i have my lovely, lovely Ella on loan, who has done wonders for my confidence in just the last two months.
Ella is EXACTLY the right horse for me. She's 15.2hh, not wide but not fine, if that makes sense. She's very sensible, never bombs off or gets strong, but she isn't a plod either. She's starting to get to know me, and i can see that she trusts me as her rider as well. I think her personality just "clicks" with mine, and i love riding her, and feel quite attached to her emotionally.
I went back to my old yard yesterday, to visit the Moose, and while it was lovely to cuddle her and make a fuss of her, I didn't feel the same attachment to her that I used to feel. I cried my eyes out over that horse dozens of times, because i was so worried about her, but now although i am still worried about her, i didnt feel that huge tug of concern for her that I used to.
Am I just shallow? That horse was my life for 18 months, but it seems that as soon as I get another horse i switch my affection to that one and forget the Moose. She doesnt have anyone to fuss her at the moment, and she loves being fussed so much.
