I love him so much but...

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grandmaweloveyou

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Why oh why can't I love him enough to stay? Had another wonderful night on my boy last night, I have been schooling hard now for about 3 weeks due to the weather / lack of light etc and I am so so proud of him. Canter work (finally got the right leg on both reins although admittedly it fell out again last night on the right rein), Jumping really nicely, and enjoying it, gorgeous paces, transitions and half halts etc. I adore being on him and with him but as you all know I am emigrating. I am finding it excruciatingly painful to leave him, why can't I be happy enough with the rest of my life to stay solely for him? I feel so guilty this morning. I had such fun last night, was like a little child, I am 32 years of age and I insisted on doing round the world in the saddle both directions just to prove I can! I was laughing so much at myself I could sense his eyeballs rolling skywards thinking "oh mum just get off and go please!". Do you all think I am mean? I am coming back in a few months to spend time with him and will fly home as regularly as possible and if it wasnt so hot / flies etc over there I would take him like a shot regardless of cost. I also want him to progress in his career and whilst I have done the groundwork, I am not at a level to bring the best out of him so part of me is thinking of his best interests, honest. Sorry, "whingeing (sp?) pom" post.
 
Awww im sorry to hear your feeling like this, I know how much you adore your boy, if I didnt have two already id love to take him on.. But with moving yards and now paying livery for two horses its just not possible!! It seems like you dont have much choice in the matter but to find him a loan/share home where you can still come back and visit.
You are keeping his best interests at heart by not taking him over with you, he would most probably find it difficult to adapt to the climate anyway, plus dragging him halfway across the world isnt ideal either!

Have you started looking for loan/share homes yet? You could try posting on CSP forum about him???

Why are you emigrating if you dont mind me asking??

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Where abouts are you? Can you do some sort of ad that people on here could access then maybe we could put the word around at local tack shops/yards etc? I know you are not meant to advertise on here but if people wanted to PM you maybe that would be OK??? I feel so sorry for you I wish I could help you obviously love your horse so much!
 
How long are you planning to be in Oz - Andrea at Meadowfarm exports trads to there and they do cope with the heat.

If you were serious about taking him, give her a call and she can give you an idea of costs and what is involved.

Again, if I did already have two big haires, I would love him on loan until you got back but my OH would kill me.
 
Oh I honestly wouldn't let the heat and flies put you off taking him with you. We brought our little pony over here with us and she adapted perfectly well. Horses are survivors and they will just deal with whatever there is to deal with.

It is absolutely boiling over here in the summer and horrifically freezing in the winter and our British pony has had no problems whatsoever.
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