fine_and_dandy
Well-Known Member
I was just looking at some pictures in the gallery and thinking, "I would love to be doing that" [looking at the bareback pictures!]
I used to be quite gung ho in a confident, try anything kind of way and wasn't really phased by "little things" when riding.
I had a confidence crisis 2 - 3 years ago - nothing really "major" but a series of events which lead to me have a nervous breakdown when it came to riding and it got to the point where I would cry getting on a horse and feel useless for doing it, even though I couldn't justify it.
I'm slowly getting there again [not anywhere like how I was when I used to gallop scurry ponies up over the Welsh moors with Muffinino!] and now have managed to break my thinking of tainting every horse with the same brush. I still get a very small "butterfly" feeling before I get on but it melts away. This is good because it means Bailey and I [whom I've had for 4 years now and at 4 and a half has been backed for around 3/4 months now] can start doing everything that I hoped we would do when I first got him. I'm not as brave as I wish I was and will take me time to feel confident to gout jumping etc again, but we'll wait and see.
One of the biggest helps I've found, is looking at other HHO forum members and certain members stick in my mind as motivation. I admire Gorgeous_George - I remember her posts about nerves in the beginning and looking at what she has achieved with George gives me hope that I will overcome my remaining issues. I also look at Rosie [RunToEarth] and see the pictures of her hunting. I would love to think I will do that one day and look at her pictures and think WOW! It gives me the motivation to keep going and try new stuff. They don't know that they help, but they do!
There are others as well, [like MrsMozart] but the names that always stick out to me are those above
I just wanted to know if anyone else thought the same about any other forum members who had helped them even without realising it!
Baileys [the drink, not my horse!] and hot chocolate melty pudding for all
I used to be quite gung ho in a confident, try anything kind of way and wasn't really phased by "little things" when riding.
I had a confidence crisis 2 - 3 years ago - nothing really "major" but a series of events which lead to me have a nervous breakdown when it came to riding and it got to the point where I would cry getting on a horse and feel useless for doing it, even though I couldn't justify it.
I'm slowly getting there again [not anywhere like how I was when I used to gallop scurry ponies up over the Welsh moors with Muffinino!] and now have managed to break my thinking of tainting every horse with the same brush. I still get a very small "butterfly" feeling before I get on but it melts away. This is good because it means Bailey and I [whom I've had for 4 years now and at 4 and a half has been backed for around 3/4 months now] can start doing everything that I hoped we would do when I first got him. I'm not as brave as I wish I was and will take me time to feel confident to gout jumping etc again, but we'll wait and see.
One of the biggest helps I've found, is looking at other HHO forum members and certain members stick in my mind as motivation. I admire Gorgeous_George - I remember her posts about nerves in the beginning and looking at what she has achieved with George gives me hope that I will overcome my remaining issues. I also look at Rosie [RunToEarth] and see the pictures of her hunting. I would love to think I will do that one day and look at her pictures and think WOW! It gives me the motivation to keep going and try new stuff. They don't know that they help, but they do!
There are others as well, [like MrsMozart] but the names that always stick out to me are those above
I just wanted to know if anyone else thought the same about any other forum members who had helped them even without realising it!
Baileys [the drink, not my horse!] and hot chocolate melty pudding for all