Little update (and photo)

[brighthair]

I think a few of you read my posts about my massive confidence crisis. I was really bad yesterday resulting in me getting off in floods of tears. I seem to manage to convince myself that I can't ride, I won't stay on if anything happens, and that I should give up trying. *sigh*

It's not the horse, it's more like when they spook - I freeze and start thinking "What if?" rather than sticking my leg on and sending them forward. Hannah is being such a fab girlie for me - she doesn't do anything scary, and she makes me work hard for the result I want so I feel I really achieve something.
Jetset (Hannahs owner) gave me lots of help today, and I had a few "can't do it" moments, mainly in canter. I think because she is so big, and well schooled, she feels really forward and I panic that I can't stop, or that she'll shoot off or spook
I've contact Jo Cooper who does NLP and I've decided to start it. My riding isn't holding me back, it's my confidence and self belief. So here's a photo of me on her today actually looking like I could do a Prelim test, and here's to self belief!!

 

[chickeninabun]

Well done, you both look really good in the photo (albeit a little blurry).
I had a confidence crisis with a loan horse and was totally miserable. Eventually I built up the courage to admit I wasn't happy and sent her back to her owner. I now have the most wonderful cob I could wish for and my confidence has gone sky high, but I do have a few off days, especially if she seems spooky before I've even got on. But I get through and am enjoying myself, so that's all that matters.

 

[Smith123]

You both look lovely!

 

[_jetset_]

I just want to say that Brighthair did absolutely brilliantly... The canter work at the end was just fantastic and they both looked like true dressage divas in the trot work from beginning to end!

Brighthair, you should have more confidence in yourself... you are a really lovely rider, I mean that. I would never have let someone I didn't think had natural feel or a nice seat ride her... so please take that as a huge compliment to yourself!