Losing my bottle?

[Honeybee]

Anyone feel this sometimes?

Have hunted from a young age although stopped,maybe two years, not riding in winter, now have paddock to riding in and fit horse.
The hunt is going over our land on Saturday and I would love to go but I’m really terrified?? What’s that all about?
Any tips?

 

[POLLDARK]

The mind is a funny thing isn't it. I would try just going to the meet, tell yourself that is all you are going to do to just get yourself there. Once there you may decide to tag along for a bit Or not just as you feel, you may find you go out for 20 mins, an hour or maybe a day. Remember you can go home any time, do as much as you want to do & no more.