Lost all confidence with my horse help- would schooling help?

[Celtic1998]

So I had a bad fall a few years ago and before that me and my horse were jumping 1.05 tracks and jumping open cross country and school teams the works he was my dream horse. However after my fall and him putting his back out things have gone downhill my confidence hasn't come back yet I'm confident on other people's horses. Just when we are doing well he'll do something like rearing and refusing to come in, spooking and jumping in front of cars and spooking in the school and bucking me off or just generally trying to ditch me we also haven't been on grass in a year as he gets over excited which he never used to do and my dad gets worried about me going out on him and I often end up in tears. I've had teeth, back and full check up done by the vets and had saddle checked although since he first did his back he's been very girthy. He's had sarcoids so I can't really sell him and I don't want him to end up in a bad way. I'm thinking of sending him away to be schooled and brought back to full fitness and then loaning him out what's everyone's opinions on this? And does anyone know of any places in richmond/darlington/north Yorkshire I could send him that are understanding and reasonably priced? Anyone's opinions or help is greatly appreciated and I'm happy to get on a 17.2hh that's been off work for 6 weeks but not my own 15.2 I've had for years it's really tearing me up

 

[Brightbay]

There's nothing worse than dreading riding because you don't know what's going to happen. You need to be able to take things really slowly and rebuild yours and your horse's confidence.

I would suggest you speak to your vet first and foremost. A horse who has a history of back pain, who is now girthy, and who is spooky and explodes unpredictably would be worth checking for gastric ulcers - the ulcers are quite common in horses who have been in chronic pain of various kinds, and they often manifest themselves with very on-edge behaviour especially when ridden. The girthiness is also pointing that way.

If you can rule out all physical causes of this kind, then by all means send the horse away for schooling, but you may find you have a more relaxed and less unpredictable horse

 

[Celtic1998]

Having done some research it does seem that this could be an underlying issue I had my vet come out a while back when I was tacking him up and then he would almost go down on all fours so and the vet thought it was just psychological after he put his back out? I'm defiantly going to give the vet a ring and have him checked for ulcers I've had everything else checked thanks for the advice! I'm still worried that I'll never get my confidence back at one point I was lunging him regularly but then he started going crazy and dangerous on the lunge so I can't do that either unfortunately but checking for ulcers could be a step in the right direction