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Hannah92

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I know all you guys dont really want to know but i have had this all going on and I need to tell someone!!
Im going absolulty mad and im losing my brain!
I dont know whats wrong i just keep welling up for no reason I think its stress related but i cant sleep - havnt slept whole night for at least month. Anyway here is what has been going on!
* My best friend has just been through an abortion (please no debates i dont know if i fully agree anyway) I have supported her all the way through it, answered calls at 4am, been to the doctor, the clinic, dried her tears etc & yesterday she had the guts to blame it on me and say i made her kill her baby as i told her what she chose was the right thing. [I know that it was just her hormones, but it still hurt]
* College is rubbish, I hate my subjects, the teachers etc I REALLY want to leave but i know i have to get my grades
* Its been a year since my long time boyfriend and I split up, i should be over him but I still dont know why it happened.
* My friend turned round about a week ago and told me shes a lesbian and fancys me - she now hates me as my reply wasnt what she wanted.
and finally
* My other best friends Mum is very ill with cancer, shes trying really hard to be brave but i think we all know her mum isnt going to pull through. She rings me crying and I dont know what to say anymore - i feel like such a [****] friend.

I know im probably blowing it all out of proportion but its all building up and I dont know how much longer i can cope with it all. Some days I just want to hide and wait until it is all over! The only peace and respite I get is from riding my new absolulty gorgoeus horsey!!

Sorry for this post i dont really see its point! Just wondering if anyone knows any stress relieving/helping sleeping tactics?

Thank you!
 
Really sorry to hear you are feeling a bit down. By the sounds of it you have a lot going on so, if you aren't sleeping it's no wonder everything is getting to you. You might feel a bit better now you've said how you feel?

To help you sleep you could try something simple like a hot milky drink about an hour before going to bed. When I'm started to get stressed I meditate and find it works for me. There are lots of meditation CDs you can buy or, you may even be able to borrow one from the library.

(((((de-stressing vibes))))
 
Awww (((Hugs)))
Practucal tips, going for a run/writing down all the problems can help, doing exercise and getting away from it all i also find helps me. Have you tried telling anyone eg your mum or a close friend how you are feeling, having a good cry with someone else you know who loves you or cares about you is always helpful. Mabye if you can mention to your friends how you are feeling, if you are in college you and they are all old enough to understand how this makes you feel as well.

Sleeping try tablets
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! Or reading a book or doing something else calm before going to bed. When i am stressed i just read and read until my eyes wont stay open anymore (sometimes takes till 4am but then i sleep till 7 and that is better than the really interupted sleep you get when stressed - when you wake up more tired than you were before you went to bed.

Hope it all gets better soon though for you
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Firstly ((((((((((hugs))))))))).
There are lots of things around to help you sleep. I know a few people who take anti histamine (sp?) as they have a drowsy effect. I am having trouble sleeping i havn't slept since oct (well not a full night just a few hours here and there) I know mine is stress related i have so much crap going on but i have always had insomnia so that doesn't help.
I hope writing it down has helped i know it helps me.
You are prob right about friend 1 it is her hormanes she prob feels guilty for killing the baby and wants someone to lash out at not that i'm saying it should be you after all you have done for her. But once she settles and comes to terms with it she will prob realise what a good friend you are.
Your friend with the ill mum just listen to her be there for her and support her. I'm shore you are not a [****] friend. Sounds like you put up with alot from your friends with your other friends declaration. You where honest with her and if she doesn't like it then what type of friend is she.
Chin up it will all sort it's self out in the end. In the mean time we are all here if you need to vent. Have some more (((((((hugs)))))))) to keep you going.
 
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