Hannah92
Well-Known Member
I know all you guys dont really want to know but i have had this all going on and I need to tell someone!!
Im going absolulty mad and im losing my brain!
I dont know whats wrong i just keep welling up for no reason I think its stress related but i cant sleep - havnt slept whole night for at least month. Anyway here is what has been going on!
* My best friend has just been through an abortion (please no debates i dont know if i fully agree anyway) I have supported her all the way through it, answered calls at 4am, been to the doctor, the clinic, dried her tears etc & yesterday she had the guts to blame it on me and say i made her kill her baby as i told her what she chose was the right thing. [I know that it was just her hormones, but it still hurt]
* College is rubbish, I hate my subjects, the teachers etc I REALLY want to leave but i know i have to get my grades
* Its been a year since my long time boyfriend and I split up, i should be over him but I still dont know why it happened.
* My friend turned round about a week ago and told me shes a lesbian and fancys me - she now hates me as my reply wasnt what she wanted.
and finally
* My other best friends Mum is very ill with cancer, shes trying really hard to be brave but i think we all know her mum isnt going to pull through. She rings me crying and I dont know what to say anymore - i feel like such a [****] friend.
I know im probably blowing it all out of proportion but its all building up and I dont know how much longer i can cope with it all. Some days I just want to hide and wait until it is all over! The only peace and respite I get is from riding my new absolulty gorgoeus horsey!!
Sorry for this post i dont really see its point! Just wondering if anyone knows any stress relieving/helping sleeping tactics?
Thank you!
Im going absolulty mad and im losing my brain!
I dont know whats wrong i just keep welling up for no reason I think its stress related but i cant sleep - havnt slept whole night for at least month. Anyway here is what has been going on!
* My best friend has just been through an abortion (please no debates i dont know if i fully agree anyway) I have supported her all the way through it, answered calls at 4am, been to the doctor, the clinic, dried her tears etc & yesterday she had the guts to blame it on me and say i made her kill her baby as i told her what she chose was the right thing. [I know that it was just her hormones, but it still hurt]
* College is rubbish, I hate my subjects, the teachers etc I REALLY want to leave but i know i have to get my grades
* Its been a year since my long time boyfriend and I split up, i should be over him but I still dont know why it happened.
* My friend turned round about a week ago and told me shes a lesbian and fancys me - she now hates me as my reply wasnt what she wanted.
and finally
* My other best friends Mum is very ill with cancer, shes trying really hard to be brave but i think we all know her mum isnt going to pull through. She rings me crying and I dont know what to say anymore - i feel like such a [****] friend.
I know im probably blowing it all out of proportion but its all building up and I dont know how much longer i can cope with it all. Some days I just want to hide and wait until it is all over! The only peace and respite I get is from riding my new absolulty gorgoeus horsey!!
Sorry for this post i dont really see its point! Just wondering if anyone knows any stress relieving/helping sleeping tactics?
Thank you!