Spotsrock
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My geriatric has a host of long term illnesses, cushings, arthritis, pyometra, suspected fading sight and previous liver issues.
Currently her liver looks good, her cushings is low grade with very little impact on day to day health and she is sound on half to 1 bute a day. She knows her environment well and seems unfazed by her dodgy sight to the point I'm not sure if I imagined it.
She is booked in to PTS at the end of this month and I am genuinely not sure if I can do it as she looks FAB! weight is good, coat is good, she's a happy bunny. Took her to a very local show a couple of weeks ago to do one veteran in hand class and she had a ball - cantered in the trot up (with me puffing along next to her, pregnancy bump and all!) and generally 'just' behaved herself. Even loaded well which my Dad looked quite pleased about given her history of awkwardness on this front - he did put a hell of a lot of work into fixing this problem when we first got her nearly 20 years ago.
She does seem to want to hang out in her stable a lot which is not like her, an hour or so out and she's about done, but she can't go out with my other 2 who she has lived with for a few years as we are at livery and she can't cope in the big field with 15 others and I have no where for all 3 of mine to be together so she is out with 2 of the livery owners mares. She does seem to like them a lot but I wonder if this could account for some of the stable fondness.
She had pyometra (womb infection, not nice) about 5 years ago and my wonderful vet managed to clean her out (very undignified) and treat with antibiotics to 'buy her a few weeks of sunshine'. She totally stopped discharging after the treatment. He is amazed how long she stayed great for. Last winter she started to discharge again and I booked the vet to assess/clean her out again. Her normal vet had broken his back so the practice offered their very experienced reproduction expert (it's a womb issue so spot on). Between booking and the visit (about a week) the weight fell off her and she about halved in bulk. Vet watched her drag hubs down the lane to the stable and compared her fight and spirit to her appearance, made the decision to clear her out again and treat with antibiotics. Took 2 goes but the wieght started to come back on and she now looks her usual fab self.
But - she is still discharging slightly, worse some days than others and no apparant discomfort. I have spent almost 20 years battling her weight in summer and this year she is well upholstered but not fat, she has had hard feed and good grass every day so she is not putting it on as she used to.
I booked PTS as I can't face her getting so poorly again over the winter and watching her suffer as the vet says it's unlikely she will pick up a third time, even if she is the wonder horse! But looking at her today all brave and strong and happy I am just not sure I can do it. My present condition is not helping, I cry over burnt toast! She is so pleased to see me and hubs, calling to us and ambling over the field to come in for tea and she loves her daily groom and cuddle even if I don't have very long to spend with her each day around work, pregnancy backache and exhaustion.
I know it's more fair to let her go with her dignity, strength and beauty in tact but it's just so hard to see such a healthy feisty horse and believe what a mess her inner workings are. She has all her teeth (bar one) and if it weren't for the pyometra would have maybe 5 - 10 years left. My daughter will never meet her, but will have her name for a middle name and I won't quite hit the 20 year owniversary with her.
Please tell me if I am doing the right thing. She's taken me so far (often at gallop without my permission) and taught me so much (whether I wanted to learn it or not) that it is critical I get this right. I do have her usual vet booked so will take a last minute opinion from him too.
Currently her liver looks good, her cushings is low grade with very little impact on day to day health and she is sound on half to 1 bute a day. She knows her environment well and seems unfazed by her dodgy sight to the point I'm not sure if I imagined it.
She is booked in to PTS at the end of this month and I am genuinely not sure if I can do it as she looks FAB! weight is good, coat is good, she's a happy bunny. Took her to a very local show a couple of weeks ago to do one veteran in hand class and she had a ball - cantered in the trot up (with me puffing along next to her, pregnancy bump and all!) and generally 'just' behaved herself. Even loaded well which my Dad looked quite pleased about given her history of awkwardness on this front - he did put a hell of a lot of work into fixing this problem when we first got her nearly 20 years ago.
She does seem to want to hang out in her stable a lot which is not like her, an hour or so out and she's about done, but she can't go out with my other 2 who she has lived with for a few years as we are at livery and she can't cope in the big field with 15 others and I have no where for all 3 of mine to be together so she is out with 2 of the livery owners mares. She does seem to like them a lot but I wonder if this could account for some of the stable fondness.
She had pyometra (womb infection, not nice) about 5 years ago and my wonderful vet managed to clean her out (very undignified) and treat with antibiotics to 'buy her a few weeks of sunshine'. She totally stopped discharging after the treatment. He is amazed how long she stayed great for. Last winter she started to discharge again and I booked the vet to assess/clean her out again. Her normal vet had broken his back so the practice offered their very experienced reproduction expert (it's a womb issue so spot on). Between booking and the visit (about a week) the weight fell off her and she about halved in bulk. Vet watched her drag hubs down the lane to the stable and compared her fight and spirit to her appearance, made the decision to clear her out again and treat with antibiotics. Took 2 goes but the wieght started to come back on and she now looks her usual fab self.
But - she is still discharging slightly, worse some days than others and no apparant discomfort. I have spent almost 20 years battling her weight in summer and this year she is well upholstered but not fat, she has had hard feed and good grass every day so she is not putting it on as she used to.
I booked PTS as I can't face her getting so poorly again over the winter and watching her suffer as the vet says it's unlikely she will pick up a third time, even if she is the wonder horse! But looking at her today all brave and strong and happy I am just not sure I can do it. My present condition is not helping, I cry over burnt toast! She is so pleased to see me and hubs, calling to us and ambling over the field to come in for tea and she loves her daily groom and cuddle even if I don't have very long to spend with her each day around work, pregnancy backache and exhaustion.
I know it's more fair to let her go with her dignity, strength and beauty in tact but it's just so hard to see such a healthy feisty horse and believe what a mess her inner workings are. She has all her teeth (bar one) and if it weren't for the pyometra would have maybe 5 - 10 years left. My daughter will never meet her, but will have her name for a middle name and I won't quite hit the 20 year owniversary with her.
Please tell me if I am doing the right thing. She's taken me so far (often at gallop without my permission) and taught me so much (whether I wanted to learn it or not) that it is critical I get this right. I do have her usual vet booked so will take a last minute opinion from him too.