O god, miserable and self pitying....help

[Vizslak]

Someone tell me to pull myself together. I'm having a dull evening and been moseying through pics on fb. The pictures of me and my girly hunting the last two seasons have just reduced me to tears. I have retired her due to lameness at an unrespectable age of 15, shes about 3 metres away from me now with old pone in the paddock at home, we moved them out of livery last week. I LOVE my mare soooooooo much and the pics have just reminded me just how much I miss riding the fruitcake.

I don't think I'm even going to be able to hunt this season as the youngster just isn't going cut it and as much as I love him and am finding him rewarding in his own way at the moment, he just is'nt her, and he never will be. God I should have started drinking this eve and I'd b piddled by now and not moping. I miss her

 

[ester]

chin up chuck!

sounds like she was pretty irreplaceable and at that age you prob expected to have longer with her. am lucky enough to still be on first pone so I don't compare him to anybody but i know it will bloody hard to find one to fill his spot when I have to.- oh dear you've set me off too now.

Fred is lush, but different and has big boots to fill..................

you could start drinking now!

 

[Vizslak]

He is lush and extremely talented, and such a character and will go far, I'm sure of it but he doesnt have 'it' that makes my mare so special, she's wasn't my first but she was always 'the one', that really special one that unfortunately I think all future horses will be compared to, she was no saint, freds much easier to ride in most ways, no one else would choose to ride her over him! I dunno, I guess thats y she big pet of a field ornament now

Or perhaps I'm dumbly waiting for a miracle! I will be fine 2mrw, I think iv just shut the feeling off for months and tried to ignore it.

 

[mrsew]

Big Hugs to you Temsik! & how have you managed to keep off the wine???? You don't need to pull yourself together you are already amazing going through this tough time without hitting the bottle! I can sort of understand what you are going through as my beautiful 19 year old boy has had to be retired due to a heart murmer, only found out last week, we loved our hunting too. There are no words to heal the hurt you are feeling but enjoy the memories and hopefully you and the young boy will get out hunting in the future. Whilst he will never be your special girl you will have days you all can share. Sorry if I'm talking crap....I just want to make things a tiny bit easier for you. Lots of love Sxxxxxxxxxxxx

 

[Vizslak]

Thanks both of you x

 

[Mel1]

cant really help you, I am in the same extact mood at you at the moment,
i just feel like opening a bottle of wine and just sit watching picture of horses.
why is it that it is when you loose things that you realise how lucky you were to have it in the first place???