Och dear I need distraction... lots.

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I just had a HORRID dream about my accident. But instead of having it, I was watching myself having it, and watching my poor darling Cadbury in pain... and shrieking at myself not to kick on over the fence because it was MY fault he died.

I feel like a ridiculous shivery ten year old who has just had a nightmare and requires sweets and spectacular amounts of sympathy before they can return to bed.

I know why I had it... I saw someone I knew when I first got Cabs today, and she asked how he was doing, so I had to re-tell the whole tale. I think it made it worse that she knew him - telling you rowdy lot hasn't affected me at all!

Have tried waking the dogs up and making them talk to me, but they told me exactly where to shove my nightmare, and when I went out for a cuddle with Roy boy he was so flat out and snoring and peaceful in his stable that I felt like a big sleep nazi and left him to it.

BAH. Stoopid nightmares. I'm going to watch late night Jeremy Kyle reruns, drink Diet Coke and try very hard not to think about my beautiful boy and what he could have been doing now if I hadn't been such a twit.
 
Nigthtmares are the pits, especially the ones when you wake up and aren't sure whether you were dreaming or not for a few minutes.

Hope you feel better today. Think of good things and shut the rest out of your mind.
 
I used to have a nightmare about pirates... :o

*huge hugs* Starzaan! You KNOW the accident was not your fault. Your mind is just tired and being a bit horrid to you at the moment xxx
 
Urgh, I hate nightmares. Was it the kind where you also knew that it was a nightmre, you just couldn't wake up? I get them a lot.
Unfortunately they are unavoidable aren't they??
 
Thank you all... I didn't get back to sleep, I ended up doing ridiculous things like hoovering and cleaning tack at 4am!

It was one of those awful "I know I'm dreaming, so just sort yourself out and wake UP!" ones... ugh!

At least all my tack is sparkling now :D
 
Sparkly tack is good :)
The riding game... I will only be impressed if you beat 55 seconds on level four (and have a print screen to prove it!) I have mine somewhere!

As another distraction tactic... how is the farrier bagging coming along?
 
This sort of nightmare is an indicator for Post Traumatic Stress disorder - and heavans knows you've been through enough to justify it.

If it persists you might want to see your GP. There are drugs which can take the edge off a bit. Or think about counselling if that is better suited to you.

If it is any consulation I still sometimes have the odd mini flash nightmare of my pony being shot by the huntsman when he fell out hunting and broke his leg. I was 10. (And I'm a heck of a lot older than that now!)

You will get through it - but don't be afraid to ask for help if you need it.
 
Shay, it could be, thank you for pointing it out. I do get the odd horrible flashback when I'm riding across country...

How odd that it should still be bothering me so many years later! You're all lovely, thank you... am now happily eating toast and watching Friends on my first full free day for what feels like yonks!
 
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