Out in our own area, on our own, for the first time!

[benson21]

So, a deep breath was taken by me last night, and I went out on the road with OH and donovan in our own area for the first time last night. I still couldnt get the nerveto go along the road where the accident happened, but we are getting there!!
It sounds so silly to say, but I had a bit of a wobble yesterday! I had lots of tears, I dont want it to look like I am enjoying myself too much, I feel that the more I have fun, i am letting benson go just a bit more. I know it doesnt make sense, and that he would want me to enjoy donovan, but the more I look into the future I have with him, the less I keep of benson.

ETA, my God i am talking some rubbish this morning!!! Sorry!!

 

[jrp204]

Very well done. You are not forgetting Benson but moving on is part of the process, don't feel guilty as you know life is too short. Enjoy Donovan for who he is, remember Benson for the same reason.

 

[BlairandAzria]

First of all massive congratulations, you're doing brilliantly with Donovan! Youre a brave lady, you've been through an absolutely horrific ordeal with benson and then the court case etc, you need to give yourself credit for overcoming your fears and reaching those goals with Donovan ive always wanted to have a go at driving, it looks such fun!

Secondly, bereavement is a hard and deeply personal burden. But I will say that by loving Donovan, it doesn't mean that you love Benson any less, his memory will always be with you and there is enough room in your heart for them both. I'm absolutely certain that benson is watching you proud of your achievements and happy that you are taking steps to enjoy donovan, its hard but try not to feel guilty - you're allowed to be happy, it doesn't mean you cherish his memory any less.

Xx

 

[YouOnlyLiveOnce]

But I will say that by loving Donovan, it doesn't mean that you love Benson any less/QUOTE]

This.... I haven't posted on your threads before but I have followed your story. And its because of Benson that you are driving; if that is making you happy its because of him. Of course you will never forget your memories of him, so you are not letting him go, but as BlairandAzria says it doesn't mean you can't love and enjoy Donovan just as much. Im glad you've found something good from your horrific accident x