Tr0uble
Well-Known Member
He's gone. It was inevitable, I'd made the decision to do it in the new year because his dangerous episodes were becoming a daily occurrence, getting worse amd more frequent, but yesterday the decision was taken sort of out of my hands.
He'd been having a good day, happy and calm, then it was like a switch flicked and he lost it, ended up so stressed he coIicked/tied up and went down amd got cast.
As far as we can tell there was nothing specific that happened to cause the stress, and we were at the yard at the time so would have seen.
So he's gone, and I miss him, I feel wretched, relieved, guilty and empty. Feel very much like I failed him, but there were no more options for him.
He'd been having a good day, happy and calm, then it was like a switch flicked and he lost it, ended up so stressed he coIicked/tied up and went down amd got cast.
As far as we can tell there was nothing specific that happened to cause the stress, and we were at the yard at the time so would have seen.
So he's gone, and I miss him, I feel wretched, relieved, guilty and empty. Feel very much like I failed him, but there were no more options for him.