Elsbells
Well-Known Member
I'm sat here, it's late and I should really be in bed asleep, relaxed and relieved of all my worries as my pony went to his lovely loan home today, but I'm not. Instead I feel dreadful, I feel guilty and sad too!?
As some of you know from my previous posts, I've badly broken and displaced my wrist resulting in a plate and no less than 11 screws! It's healing but a slow job and I've been told it will take a year to completely heal and may never be 100%, So being Mrs sensible and not able to work for 3 months at least, being self employed so livening off hubbys earnings, I decided to sell my little project pony and if not sell, loan out for the good of my wrist my income and for that of the pony.
I ultimately decided not to sell although there were good offers and instead loan him to a member of my club who I trust, thinks horse wise like me and who needs a loan until the spring when a new horse will be purchased. It's a lovely location on her own land, 50 minutes from us and he will have company.
We dropped him off this afternoon, he behaved impeccably as he always does, this pony is golden and deserves the best, but now I'm feeling guilty! He trusts me and does as I ask and I have visions of him stood on a hillside and wondering why I've not brought him home. He got upset when his trailer was pulled out of the gates and whinnied loudly, very unlike him so that didn't help!
I can take him back whenever I like and I'll get updates and pictures, plus I can go and see him whenever I like so what's wrong with me?! I lost my mare in December last year a decision I struggled to come to terms with, this pony was bought as a distraction during the summer as the inevitable approached andI owe him loads as he kept me sane, we've had so much fun and we have become bonded.
Who else has felt like this or is it normal? At my age perhaps I shouldn't be such a baby and need a good kick?!
As some of you know from my previous posts, I've badly broken and displaced my wrist resulting in a plate and no less than 11 screws! It's healing but a slow job and I've been told it will take a year to completely heal and may never be 100%, So being Mrs sensible and not able to work for 3 months at least, being self employed so livening off hubbys earnings, I decided to sell my little project pony and if not sell, loan out for the good of my wrist my income and for that of the pony.
I ultimately decided not to sell although there were good offers and instead loan him to a member of my club who I trust, thinks horse wise like me and who needs a loan until the spring when a new horse will be purchased. It's a lovely location on her own land, 50 minutes from us and he will have company.
We dropped him off this afternoon, he behaved impeccably as he always does, this pony is golden and deserves the best, but now I'm feeling guilty! He trusts me and does as I ask and I have visions of him stood on a hillside and wondering why I've not brought him home. He got upset when his trailer was pulled out of the gates and whinnied loudly, very unlike him so that didn't help!
I can take him back whenever I like and I'll get updates and pictures, plus I can go and see him whenever I like so what's wrong with me?! I lost my mare in December last year a decision I struggled to come to terms with, this pony was bought as a distraction during the summer as the inevitable approached andI owe him loads as he kept me sane, we've had so much fun and we have become bonded.
Who else has felt like this or is it normal? At my age perhaps I shouldn't be such a baby and need a good kick?!