EllieBeast
Well-Known Member
Y'ello, i'm afraid that i am currently having a complete attack of the jitters with regards to loaning the fatster out
. i know that it HAS to be done, and i know that i WILL find someone that 'Madam' approves of (if it bloomin' kills me
, those that she approves of, are not in a position to take her on picky baggage). But now i am panicking about fitting in as much as i can do with her in the time i have left. The feeling of absolute fear and dread has set in. As 3 years is a long time, and she is going to change within those 3 years. what happens if we no longer 'click' after that time? A lot can happen in 3 years, what happens if when i leave is the last time i get to jump/xc/hack/ride her? What if i never get to see her again? what if she isnt treated as she should (as things can happen, even with the most vigorously vetted home) and isnt the same Beasty pony i know and love when i return?
Dear god, i am so sorry to unload on here, but i just dont know how else to do it. That bl**dy horse infuriates me sometimes, yet i dont want a single hair on her head or synapse in her body to change. Can i not just freeze her in time for when i get back?
Dear god, i am so sorry to unload on here, but i just dont know how else to do it. That bl**dy horse infuriates me sometimes, yet i dont want a single hair on her head or synapse in her body to change. Can i not just freeze her in time for when i get back?