Surely i should be happier??

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Ive agreed to take on this lovely ISH on loan for 9-12 months he will be arriving in the next week or two but im just not that excited.... Actually i feel awful.

This loan seems perfect im allowed to do anything with him, compete, hunt you name it i can do it. The time frame is perfect as im hoping in 9 months time my lad will be recovered enough to at least perform some level of work.

I just dont know! My lad goes in for surgery tomorrow so ive said ill take the loan boy once my lad is out of hospital, but i cant help feeling awful about it all, like im betraying my boy.

Its stupid i know! I hate seeing all my friends fb statuses about awesome hunting trips and days out competing so you'd think id be happy i get to join in again, and obviously having something else to ride will prevent me rushing my lads rehab and i really dont want to do that, he means the world to me and i just want him fixed and happy. Its not that im ungrateful at all, i just feel sad and mean for leaving my boy behind :(

Sorry completely pointless post, im just stuck in a life rut atm i know this new boy will be fun and i know its a good thing but id rather just rewind to the summer where me and my boy were having fun or skip to 2015 where maybe we can be back on some sort of track.

I dont think i want to face up to the reality that my boy is out for pretty much most of next yr :(

Apologies for the winy post maybe ill be happier when hes out of surgery and xmas is over and done with!!
 
Sending hugs.
i know how you feel. When Roo had to go for surgery i was so sad that she would have time out. I often think how much id love to go back in time
after a year or so, when i realised she would never be able to work again i felt incredibly guilty buying another. Felt like i was betraying her. But they don't think like that, she has a forever retirement home and i have fun competing my boy

get this loan, enjoy him and look forward to getting yours back into work :D
 
Completely understandable. Just focus on your horse's operation first and then you can think about the new horse's arrival.
Fingers crossed for a successful operation and return to work.
 
I know exactly where you're coming from. I personally don't want to ride any horse other than my own. I hope your boy comes through the surgery safely and makes a miraculous recovery.
 
Thank you everyone for your replies, its nice to know its not just me who feels like it, everyone at home just tells me off for moping around, they dont understand at all!
 
Once the op is over you may feel different, less worry for a start. I took on a loan horse in March last year while I was waiting for my boy to start rehab.
Its worked really well. I get to play with Sid and do what ever i want while I can let my horse take his time getting fitter and stronger - like you said, no need to rush him.
I did feel a bit guilty about shairng my love and time, but the two of them really love each other so now I am feeling guilty that in 15 months time I will have to send Sid home and my boy will miss him! (nearly as much guilt in being a horse owner as being a parent)
 
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