Mrs M, you have been there for me on this forum through my lowest points, from the heart breaking decision to have my beautiful Harvey pts when he was 6, to the stress of Tilly and her Kissing Spine operation (including giving me your mobile number if I ever needed to talk).
I wish there was something I could say to help you (as much as you helped me) and take away your pain, unfortunately we have to go through the pain to come out the other side.
I look back at Harvey now and only see the good times, for which I'm very grateful, my boys who were 5 and 6 when he was pts still talk to the brightest star in the sky, believing its Harvey and that helps me no end even now.
I'm sorry you are having to go through this, but we all know you did all you could for the beautiful Dizzy, no horse could have ever asked for a better owner, and just know you will be in our prayers tonight.
God bless and run free Dizzy.