? The saddest day

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Some may possibly know about this cat but I’ve not mentioned her in ages.
We moved here about 5 yrs ago. Soon realised we had a resident local stray/feral. Often with kittens and in a fairly bad looking way. She was long haired so always looked a state and with constant kittens to feed skinny.
We trapped her and her last kitten, spayed her, he was too young so moved them into the spare room til he was older.
Anyway both went back out. He vanished she hung round and over the years became by best little yard companion. Rarely going far (no need to hunt or go out in bad weather!) she turned into the prettiest looking cat. She got fat, loved her food and was always following me round shouting for more.
We had obligatory nose bumps and she actually gave kisses. Every morning she was waiting and when I got home from work. She sat with my while I mucked out and very often while I poo picked the fields.
-I actually got Arlo who more will remember because she made me love cats and I wanted a house cat! (He’s bit of a failure at that but getting better!)
So Wednesday pm, fed as usual, said goodnight. Thursday am no where to be seen. I called and left her food. Wandered round looking for her at home/ fields a few times that day. Was worried then, she never went far and always came without fail.
Friday am- I went out and there she was, waiting. It was pretty instantly obvious she was hurt :(
I wrapped her up and put her safe, did the horses quickly (as it was 7.15 and the emergency 24hr vet is a good 45 min drive and my own vet opened at 8)
Was there when they opened.
She wasn’t able to be saved :’(
There was a slight chance but poor prognosis and it involved long hospitalisation and months of cage rest rehab which for a cat who was terrified of being shut in and other people would have been cruel and just to stressful. The vet said he’d not be recommending that route even for a pet cat happy to be shut in and constantly handled.
So I let her go. I’m heartbroken
Someone had hit her in their car Wednesday night and the bit that’s killing me is that she spent the last 24 hours where? How the hell she got home I have no idea as her whole body was so damaged. She came home and I couldn’t help her.
She had terrible injuries and i just can’t get that part out of my head.
If only someone had knocked the door of left a note, anything so that I knew where to look.
She purred when i picked her up ?❤️
Sleep tight princess kitten.
 

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I’m so sorry this happened :(
She looks incredibly like the feral cat I adopted once. It was such an amazing feeling when she trusted me enough to let me touch her (never could actually stroke her though). I too had her speyed and she blossomed. I never knew what happened to her although I suspect the same thing, so take comfort from the fact that you were able to help end her suffering and you don’t have to wonder about what happened to her.
 

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I'm so sorry for your loss. She had the loveliest life with you, at your yard, and even though it is crap that it had to end the way it did, as Meleeka, and Errin Paddywack said, you won't have to wonder about what happened to her.

Instead of thinking about for how long she might have suffered, try to think that who knows for how long she would have suffered if she hadn't made it home. Because you definitely did help her, although it wasn't in the way that any of us would have wished for, you did help end her suffering. {{{{{{Hugs}}}}}}
 

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Thank you all so much, and thank you all for understanding although she wasn’t a house cat she still meant the world to me. So many people’s initial response has been “oh thank god it was that one” (as in not Arlo, our “proper” cat)
Obviously I’d be devastated if it had happened to him too but am kind of annoyed by the implication she didn’t really matter.
The fact she came home is truly bitter sweet. It was a real she actually really trusts me moment.
 

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When we moved to this house there was a derelict house next door which came with a resident cat. He was an old feral boy we never managed to touch him but he did come for regular meals.
We called him Old Deuteronomy. He just vanished one day and I never knew what happened to him.
 

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When we moved to this house there was a derelict house next door which came with a resident cat. He was an old feral boy we never managed to touch him but he did come for regular meals.
We called him Old Deuteronomy. He just vanished one day and I never knew what happened to him.
That’s sad, I’m grateful that didn’t happen here. When my other cat Arlo went missing it was the not knowing that was tough.
 

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Thank you all so much, and thank you all for understanding although she wasn’t a house cat she still meant the world to me. So many people’s initial response has been “oh thank god it was that one” (as in not Arlo, our “proper” cat)
Obviously I’d be devastated if it had happened to him too but am kind of annoyed by the implication she didn’t really matter.
The fact she came home is truly bitter sweet. It was a real she actually really trusts me moment.

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They've said what? I wonder how they're thinking, do they perhaps also think that your horses is not your proper horses either then, since they don't live in your home?

**Sigh** Some people are weird. Again, I'm so sorry for your loss.
 

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They've said what? I wonder how they're thinking, do they perhaps also think that your horses is not your proper horses either then, since they don't live in your home?

**Sigh** Some people are weird. Again, I'm so sorry for your loss.
Several comments yes. I don’t know, maybe I’d have thought that once upon a time.
I felt at first the vet had that opinion also. On first look he said as she’s a feral I suggest we pts. At which point I said if she could kindly be saved I was happy to pay.
My uncle sadly passed away a month or so back, I got a little money and he loved cats. He’d have been happy to pay the bill and saved her, if it were kind.
 
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