Today i learnt a sad lesson

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Today i lost my gorgeous boy Jack.
He was only ten but he had spent his life doing everything he was asked for by us humans, from racing to eventing but unfortunately his body couldn't keep up.
He was diagnosed with the dreaded Navicular but it was the torn DDFT and the chronic arthritus in his fetlock which was his downfall.
I decided to let him have the summer with the sun on his back and the sight of him looking happy was lovely.
But i knew the day was coming and was kinda getting ready for it but every day of every week i convinced myself he was ok ignoring the little signs.
So today i found my lovely Jack in pain with a look in his eyes i will never forget.
I had left it a day too late instead of a day early, so instead of being allowed the luxury of giving him his last favourite meal and spoiling him i had to act quickly.
The pain of losing a faithful friend is hard is enough but now the pain of the guilt of not doing the right thing sooner due to my own selfishness is really really hard.
RIP Jack and thankyou for everything but i'm sorry i let you down at the end xx
 
Oh god honey you didnt let him down. We all make mistakes because we love them far too much, and cant make the choice of whats best.

He's had a lovely summer, he was so loved by you I'm sure, horses want for nothing more.

Take care of you darling. xxxxx
 
So sorry to hear this :( but you really didnt let him down, and im sure he wouldnt want you to think that you did.

RIP Jack Run free in rainbow bridge xx
 
I'm so sorry for your loss - I have just lossed mine. I and I am sure many other members of HHO know exactly what your going through. I feel a wracking sense of guilt when I think of how my boy went but everything we do is for the best and you should not feel guilty in any way. x
 
Oh god, how awful for you. But you didn't let him down - you gave him a lovely life whilst being understanding and considerate of his problems. All the best, x
 
Oh Please do not feel guilty...your beautiful boy will run free from pain now. He would have had the best years of his life with you and he was so lucky to have you in his life. He may have been in pain at the very end but you never prolonged that pain, you did the right thing when he needed it and think of the horses out there who spend most of their life in pain with no love or compassion. xx take care xx
 
You didnt let him down honestly you didnt, you gave him a great life and he ended happily, with the love of friends both horsey and human.
You noticed the vital signs and you were there for him and his last moments, he would be so thankful for that and having you as a great owner.

Stay strong, and take care x
RIP xx
 
((((HUGS)))) to you :( Its such an awful decision to have to make, you just wish they would live forever.
RIP Jack
 
Please don't feel guilty!! You did the best for your boy and you really didn't know that he might not be feeling at his best on any given day. You saw he wasn't right and acted accordingly, you didn't let him suffer and that was a very brave thing to do. Cry for him and grieve for him but do not feel guilty for letting him live his life well looked after and as happy as he could ever be. You helped him when he needed it and that's all we can ever do as owners. Big hugs hun xxx
 
Believe me ! We all go through this doubt and guilt trip." What could I have done to prevent the accident",or "why didnt I notice he was off colour".Dont beat yourself up about it. It is obvious you cared about your horse and I am sure he knew it too.Today he asked to go ,and you were there for him,dont let these false doubts upset you .
 
R.I.P Jack :(
You didn't let him down hun, you gave him a fantastic last summer in a home where he was loved and cared for.
I'm sure we've all had the decision to make and I'm sure a large percentage of us wish we'd have made the decision earlier but you didn't ignore his pain when it was evident and you let him go.
Take care xx
 
You didn't let him down. He couldn't have had a peaceful passing without you, you did what you thought was right and he would thank you if he could.

RIP Jack

x
 
flamehead said:
Oh god honey you didnt let him down. We all make mistakes because we love them far too much, and cant make the choice of whats best.

He's had a lovely summer, he was so loved by you I'm sure, horses want for nothing more.

Take care of you darling. xxxxx
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Jasper65 said:
So sorry to hear this :( but you really didnt let him down, and im sure he wouldnt want you to think that you did.

RIP Jack Run free in rainbow bridge xx
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Tifferss said:
No words can make it any better - but you did NOT let him down. RIP xx
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Huge huge (((((((((((((hugs)))))))))))))) to you. Never feel like you let him down. I'm shore if you knew what was coming you would have let him go sooner. They can go down hill so quickly. :( Lucy went down hill over night. On the last day I saw her she was looking good and had even picked up. That was the sunday. I went on holiday on the monday. On the Friday while still away I had to make the desition to put her down as she had gone down hill so quickly. A part of me still feels I let her down by going away and abandoning her when she needed me most but then I have to remember I made the best desition for her when she needed me most. Just like you did with Jack. You could have made him wait while you gave him his favorate meal and said your goodbyes but you acted fast and ended his pain as quickly. I'm shore he will be forever greatfull to you for that. Try not to beat yourself up although I know thats easyer said than done. If you ever need someone to talk to or just someone to listen to if you need to let it all out my PM box is always open.
RIP Jack xxxxxx Run free now your pain is gone.
 
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