Update - Advice and experiences - PTS

[Pikachu]

Hi

Following on from my previous post a couple of weeks ago, i just thought that i would let you know that Murph was PTS last Friday morning. After discussing it with my vet, we went with the bullet rather than injection. I also went for an individual cremation and he is coming home on Saturday, although i really do not know what im going to do with him once he’s home. The people that came out (Holts) were really nice and professional which made it all go smoothly (I wasn’t there but he had my mum and a good friend with him).

Im not posting because i want sympathy or condolences, what's done is done and im ok about it all. Yes the weeks leading up to it were agonising due to the fact that I had made the decision, but since Friday morning i have been fine and it has surprisingly not upset me since its happened. Maybe im in denial, only time will tell, but I think that having my other horse to do has helped a lot.

I just wanted to let those that had answered my original post know the outcome.

Thanks
Jeni

 

[Tia]

Hi Pik, I am happy to read that it all went well and that you aren't too upset about it - I'm sure you are and I'm sure it will hit you at some point, but you are pragmatic like me - life goes on doesn't it, and I believe you made the best and kindest decision you could for Murphy.

Kind regards,

Tia x

 

[*hic*]

I'm sure you didn't just post because you want sympathy and condolences but I'm sure you need them anyway (((((jeni)))).

It's good to know that the experience was as satisfactory as possible for you and Murph, I'm sure the other horses have helped and I guess that although the waiting period was agonising you had already settled in your mind that it was inevitable and the best thing to do so in some ways the bullet brought closure for you with the knowledge that you had done the right thing for your boy and he is at peace.

I would also go for the bullet.

 

[carthorse]

Look after yourself, it may hit you when you least expect it.I talked about ours in your previous post and we have a tame butterfly [I know they don't live long] that comes to our stables every year and we say that is Sorrow visiting.My daughter got married last Sunday and his old owner put a butterfly [model] on her plate. It made her cry.
Bless you and Murph

 

[harmony_]

i agree with carthorse saying look after yourself, it will hityou when you least expect it, but you do have to remember youve got to be strong for the sake of yourself and your other neddy

im sure that Murphy had a long lovely looked after spoilt life and at the end of the day life moves on and i really wish the best for you.

Also you said you didnt want sympathy from me
but big vibes coming your way from me and harmony.
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All the best, Robyn and harmony x.

 

[Happytohack]

I am pleased that it all went well. In my experience, the worst time was leading up to it - afterwards it was a relief to know that a dear friend was no longer suffering.

 

[ClaireT]

I am glad that it went well. I had exactly the same experience with my horse.
My Husband held him for me and wouldn't let me watch. I felt a great sense of relief after it was over and didn't feel upset - having another horse to work with helped. It took a few months before the grief caught up with me, and it was many months before I stopped bursting into tears at random moments...

 

[charlie76]

I was the same as you- found it really hard to make the decision but my horse was hurting and afterwards it was a relief and I found it quite easy to come to terms with as it was best for him. It was deciding that made me feel sick.

 

[Niamhy]

Hiya Jeni,

Long time not talk, I hope you are well, Im awfull sorry to here about Murph, It was a brave decision you made, and fair play to you for making it.

Just wanted to send you some hugs and let you know that Im thinking about you, and Im sure Murph is up there playing with Jumanji (the horse I lost in April) right now, stuffing their faces with grass.

Niamh

 

[Pikachu]

Thank you to those that have replied, i know that i probabaly sound a bit harsh, hard hearted and uncarring in my post but thats just the way i am with regards to death, be it animals or humans im affraid. I did the bursting into tears and emotional rollercoster part when i made my decision (many "loo" breaks needed at work). It may well hit me when he comes home on Saturday, who knows!

As i said though, my post was to inform those that knew that i was having to make the decision and its outcome. I know deep down that it was the right choice and that it would not have gone so well if i had tried to go for the injection route. Im just glad that the ground had softened a bit for his last few days and he managed to get in a few charges round with bucking