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Well I wish it was happy but it's not.

Last night ellie had a seizure at home and had to be rushed to an emergency vets for treatment. She responded really well but at 5am she had another seizure which they where able to quickly get control of.

They are suspecting a brain lesion, she's being transfered to a vet with the ability to scan her just to confirm this morning.

To say I'm broken would be an understatement... the way it's looking i had a dog yesterday but won't likely have one by the end of the day. .
 
I wish I had something helpful to say. This situation would be beyond devastating and I don't know how you are able to push through it as bravely as you are.

I have everything I can crossed for you, that an optimistic solution can be found.
 
She's currently being given some bits to stabilise her condition so I can take her to be scanned.

On the whole the diagnosis is poor, I just can't put her down without knowing there's nothing more I can do. She's calm and happy at the moment and that's all I want.
 
Thanks.

My vet is still being a bit of idiot about it all, I got the impression he thinks I should just put her down. I had to demand I wanted her referred again! I hate leaving her there but there's no where else she can go at the moment.

Vets supposed to ring in an hour to let me know when I need to take her.

I'm sat here in tears, I just want answers so I can do the right things, this waiting is driving me mad.

I had a little moment alone with her and that may be the last one I get.
 
I'm sorry to report that we lost ellie.

She was referred to fitzpatricks for an MRI and unfortunately she went down hill and they tried there best but I called it quits.

Absolutely devastated.
 
I feel empty..

I drove her 2 hours to get seen and I still lost her.

The house is empty and hollow, feels strange. . I wasn't there at the end as it happened to quick and I couldn't have her wait just so I could be there, she wouldn't have known anyway.

Feel guilty I wasn't the last person she saw.. I didn't say goodbye.
 
this is such a horrendous situation for you. But you did get to comfort her before her time of passing. It doesn't help at all, but she did know that you loved her when she went.

You did everything you could for her, and gave her an amazing life.
 
I have tears in my eyes reading this - I've followed your threads and hoped so much for a better outcome.

You went above and beyond for her - and she would have known how much you loved her. I'm so sorry for your loss x
 
Thank you guys.

I feel like I failed, I wanted to be the last face she saw I owed her that.

Iv rung up this morning to sort out cremating her... The place that does it allows you to have 5 minutes with them before hand.. Is it that strange that I want to? I know she's not there anymore but it looks like her or won't it look like her? I want to say goodbye.

I'm so confused.
 
risky business said:
Thank you guys.

I feel like I failed, I wanted to be the last face she saw I owed her that.

Iv rung up this morning to sort out cremating her... The place that does it allows you to have 5 minutes with them before hand.. Is it that strange that I want to? I know she's not there anymore but it looks like her or won't it look like her? I want to say goodbye.

I'm so confused.
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Do what feels right to you, if it was that odd it would not be offered as there would be no call for it.
Don't beat yourself up about what you cannot change, you did what you did and made the choices you made because you felt they were the right ones for her.
Have a HUG and take the time you need, I spent a lot of time walking the routes I did with my dogs after I lost them it bought back good memories and got the tears and laughter flowing at the same time. Emotion is good if you let it out.
 
So sorry to hear you lost your girlie and know exactly how you feel. We lost our Rottie, Sage in September while we were away. She had bone cancer which she had managed to hide from us until the very end. Our house sitter took her to the vets as she had gone very lame. He X-rayed her and never woke her up. The guilt is horrible even though you know it is for the best. She came home and I got to hold her and tell her I loved her and that I was sorry I wasn't there for her when she needed me.
You did everything you could for Ellie but it just wasn't meant to be. She is free from pain and distress and was obviously loved. It doesn't make it any easier for you but you will get to cuddle her again and tell her what you want her to know. Good night, God Bless Ellie. J x
 
Thank you for your kind words all of you.

Tomorrow I'm off to see her one last time, she will then be cremated and come home until I find a suitable place to lay her to rest. Iv also got a little paw print to take home with me.

It's strange I don't feel like she's gone, feels like shes still right behind me no matter where I go.. I hope that's the case!
 
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