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It's been a year today since I lost my beautiful boy Felix (in my pic).

He was a complicated character, but his quirks taught me so much. He was my teacher, my confidante and my best friend. He was bought for me shortly after my Mum died by my Dad.

I had gone to a show to take my mind off all the rubbish that was going round in it and saw this gorgeous horse, with the most amazing movement, trotting around - he wasn't in a shape and was wobbling all over the place! I thought 'Wow, let me have a go on that, I would love to see how he would go with a bit of help'! So, I asked about him and he was for sale. I couldn't afford him. So I told my Dad about him and he said 'Buy him! I will lend you the money'. To cut a long story short, he became mine within 2 weeks!

He helped me through the worst time of my life, taught me loads, gave me lots of joy (and lots of grief!!), and lots of success once we clicked. :-)

I often tried to pay my Dad back, but he always refused, saying it was worth it to see me smile.
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When I had to make the decision to put him to sleep, it tore my heart out. But he owed me nothing, I owed him everything, and I felt it was the ultimate gesture of my love for him. To free him from pain. Now it was me who felt that pain. I told my Dad that he had made my dreams come true when he bought me Felix....and I will be forever grateful, as not many people can say that.

I could write so much about him, but it would go on forever! I will never forget you Felix. Run free my superstar...xxx
 
Big hugs xxx I go through the same thing every year on the anniversary of my Mickey's death - and he died nine years ago. I suspect this date will always be a bit tearful for you
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It hasn't been a year since I lost my Nessy (January) and I still think about him everyday, he was my knight in shining armour and helped me through the end of my marriage, he always made me smile no matter how hard things got at home. I miss him terribly and always will, the anniversary of his death I feel will always be a hard day for me. Lots of ((hugs))
 
Hugs to you Amaretto, so sad, but sounds as though you & Felix had a special time together. Hugs to you & your Dad on the loss of your Mum. Sxxx

Love & hugs to you all that have lost loved ones - beit two or four legged friends xxxxxxxxxx
 
Its a yr tomorrow since I lost my beautiful boy too, I was driving along the other day thinking about him and I burst into tears, If anyone saw me they must have thought I was mad!!!

Its just good to know that they are no longer in pain, even though I have a new one I always am thinking about Jay!!!
 
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Hugs to you Amaretto, so sad, but sounds as though you & Felix had a special time together. Hugs to you & your Dad on the loss of your Mum. Sxxx

Love & hugs to you all that have lost loved ones - beit two or four legged friends xxxxxxxxxx

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Thank you. I lost Mum 6 years ago in November and bought Fee the following May. Had him for 4 and a half years. Not long, but I honestly think he was sent for a purpose, silly though it sounds.
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So very sad for you - but please remember how he made all those dreams come true for you. Keep him in that special place in your heart (along with your mum)....and never forget.
 
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Its a yr tomorrow since I lost my beautiful boy too, I was driving along the other day thinking about him and I burst into tears, If anyone saw me they must have thought I was mad!!!

Its just good to know that they are no longer in pain, even though I have a new one I always am thinking about Jay!!!

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I have a new one too. A youngster who I have broken myself. Have just about started to 'like' him! It is difficult to let yourself get attached when you have been hurt by such a huge loss. He is cute though, and I shouldn't compare...
 
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