Sparkles
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Had my first lesson back with my old instructor today, lovely lesson, lovely horse.
First bay horse I've been on since big lad however. It's so stupid I know, as not even the same type or similar at all, he was warmblood and B was TB! But all so similar looking through them big bay ears sat on top. Welled me up completely but held it together, then right at the end, I don't know why I did, but big lad had a spot at the top of his neck where if you pressed it, he'd pop his head down....so I automatically did it like I'd do at the end of the ride with B without thinking, and bay horse did exactly the same. Cue water works. Then me having to try and explain and all I could manage as an explaination was 'They're the first bay ears I've seen since' so me sounding like a right head case.
Honestly. I thought I was ok...then today, bam, feels like back to square one. It felt nice being back on board, but I just kind of feel a 'connection' has gone, like something is missing now. Whatever it is, I want it back.
Maybe when baby coblet is older, it'll be different as he's 'mine' and I have a bond with him, I don't know. Either that or I'll just stick to driving next year. I don't know.
I'm going back to lessons as much as I can and see if I can get my mojo back I guess, as if anyone can sort me out, it will be her.
Stupid rambling post....now got a 2 hour meeting also to get ready for. Blergh. Not feeling it today.
First bay horse I've been on since big lad however. It's so stupid I know, as not even the same type or similar at all, he was warmblood and B was TB! But all so similar looking through them big bay ears sat on top. Welled me up completely but held it together, then right at the end, I don't know why I did, but big lad had a spot at the top of his neck where if you pressed it, he'd pop his head down....so I automatically did it like I'd do at the end of the ride with B without thinking, and bay horse did exactly the same. Cue water works. Then me having to try and explain and all I could manage as an explaination was 'They're the first bay ears I've seen since' so me sounding like a right head case.
Honestly. I thought I was ok...then today, bam, feels like back to square one. It felt nice being back on board, but I just kind of feel a 'connection' has gone, like something is missing now. Whatever it is, I want it back.
Maybe when baby coblet is older, it'll be different as he's 'mine' and I have a bond with him, I don't know. Either that or I'll just stick to driving next year. I don't know. I'm going back to lessons as much as I can and see if I can get my mojo back I guess, as if anyone can sort me out, it will be her.
Stupid rambling post....now got a 2 hour meeting also to get ready for. Blergh. Not feeling it today.
