1 year ago! A whole year!

Queenbee

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RIP Ebony xxx

I wish you had never known a moments struggle or pain in your life, I wish I'd found you and known you sooner in your life, and I wish I could have saved you from your last battle, and that we could still be riding down country lanes together. I will always love you and miss you. I take great comfort that you touched so many hearts along your life's journey xxx


No amount of time would ever have been enough. RIP Queen Bee x

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Wow I can't believe it's been a year! Goodness I stuck by your threads religiously...

Kisses to Ben xxxxx
 
Hugs. Doesn't feel like a year since your posts, really doesn't.
Hope your enjoying it up their ebony xxx
 
Thank you everyone xxx I've tried not to make too big a thing of it on here as I know a couple of other people are battling for their horses who are experiencing similar issues on here at the moment, hence the late evening post. I did have huge hugs with Ben today, its so odd, if I didn't have him when I lost her, I'd never have ridden again, but as it is, I simply don't know what I'd do without him or even what I'd have done without him this year.


Our last evening together and the moment I decided to say goodbye, this is one of the most special photos I have, the last of us that was taken and a moment I never thought I'd experience with my box walking nervy horse. This photo actually sits at the end of my bed, has done since June 16th last year, with her shoe and her false plait I made for hunting x

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mulledwhine said:
What a beautiful image :)

I am ( oddly ) glad you had the chance to do that :)

What a lovely memory :) xxx
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I know exactly what you mean, being that 'relaxed' and off guard in her stall was never my girl, and an absolute indication of just how poorly she was, I'm sure we all remember the graphic images of how emaciated she was underneath those rugs at the end, and the fact that she had a stable rug and medium weight turnout show how poorly she was. A healthy ebony would never have remained lying down for that photo, but my god, its the most precious thing xx

mulledwhine said:
Please just remember the good times :)

My boy went so fast I did not get the chance :(
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I made a pact with myself, I have a song and when it comes on I flood my mind with all the good memories, the bad ones creep in, and this last fortnight has been tough because of the other horses on here that are battling in similar ways, its bought the bad bits back a bit. But I am adamant that I will remember the amazing sprit that honoured me by sharing her life with me and allowing me to ride her,
On the one hand I am strangely grateful that I had that time to prepare myself, from the beginning I knew in the pit of my stomach that this was the beginning of the end for us, it gave me time to say goodbye and to prepare myself. On the other hand, it gave her weeks of deterioration and slowly starving towards death. Selfishly, I completely see where you are coming from, I would hate to not have the chance to hold and say goodbye to my animals, but then on the other side it's so hard, because I understand that if ebs went faster, she would have ultimately suffered less. Having said that, we had many happy days when she had the sun on her back, and a sparkle in her eyes, in my heart I knew she were dying but I cherish those few days we had, and the knowledge in my heart of what was to come.. It made me ensure that not a second was wasted xx

I can honestly say that the way I live my life and appreciate Ben has changed for the better because I lost her, I have lived every moment since then, realising just how precious and fleeting our time with our horses is x
 
Beautiful photos(which are wonderful to have,as good memories):) My deep sympathies-sometimes we never get over the loss of loved ones,just handle it better by the year. RIP pretty girl.
 
(((hugs))) Queenbee.

Ebony's story touched me. I was "hooked" by her pregnancy scare ;) then later deeply moved by her illness and decline, and your heroic battle to find an answer.

In the end, your equally brave decision to recognise when it was time to let her go, made me cry so many tears.

RIP beautiful Ebony. You will not be forgotten.
 
I still remember sitting on the bench outside Hobgoblins music shop, waiting for the bus after work when I read your terrible news.

Stunning photo! R.I.P Ebony x
 
I cannot believe it has been a year. I followed your posts about her at the time and cried so many tears with you.

Hugs. I'm actually sat at my desk fighting back tears now, that picture is really special. Xxx
 
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