LauraWheeler
Well-Known Member
13 years ago my life was spiraling out of control. I was 15 refusing to go to school, getting mixed up in all kinds of trouble and heading down the path to self destruction. 
My life was a compleat mess and I hated myself and everyone else to. Looking back now I regret what I put my poor parents through. They never knew why I was like I was they tried to stand by me as best they could. But i didn't make things easy for them at all.
Then on the 19th may 1998 my life began to change forever. A little chestnut mare came into my life. She was as messed up as I was. She hated the world and everyone in it.
I was deturmined to help this little mare. When I was with her I forgot all my troubles and focased on her. When I was with her nothing else mattered. Not school, the teachers, the other pupils, my family not even the other girls at the yard. It was just her and me. I sat on the field gate every day and talked to her. This went on for 6 months. One day I had had a very tough day and realy felt like I had had enough. The girls at the yard had been realy teasing me and told me that even my own pony hated me. I went up to the field and sat on the gate crying. I was crying so hard I didn't notice the pony creeping closer and closer. Eventualy she was right next to me. I slowly reached out my hand and touched her neck. I remember it was so soft and warm. I felt all warm inside, I gave a little smile for the first time in ages and started to cry happy tears. From that moment on things started to change. Everyday the little mare trusted me alittle more. Still all the girls at the yard were laughing at me telling me to have the pony shot. But I knew she could trust me. I knew she could learn to trust again. I became deturmind to prove them all wrong. I put all my energy into the pony instead of my self loathing. I started going to school. I didn't care about the teachers or the pupils anymore. I knew once I got home I could go and see my pony and she was all that realy mattered now.
Eventualy I was able to lead her into the yard, groom and tack her up.
Words can't describe how amazing it felt and finaly after a year of owning her I was able to ride her.
It was very difficult at first and I fell off her every single day atleast once. But I had gained her trust in the field so I knew she could be ridden. I kept on trying with everyone laughing in my face. I knew she could do it and she did.
The pony i'm talking about is Lucy. She turned out to be the best pony I could have wished for.
People talk about how I saved Lucy and turned her life around. But she saved me. I realy don't know what would have happened to me if she haddn't have come into my life. For 12 years she was my best friend. Whenever times got tough she was there to help me through. Without her I honestly don't think I would be here anymore.
I wasn't able to be with Lucy at the end. I still feel so guilty for not being there for her when she needed me most. For not saying goodbye.
I made this video. The song says everything I wish I had said to Lucy before she died.
[youtube]PRvOZqtTKrk[/youtube]
I will never beable to thank Lucy enough for all she did for me over the years we were together. I just hope she knows how much I love her. Life just isn't the same without her. But her memory keeps me going. She taught me never to give up, no matter how hard it gets.
RIP my angel. Till we meet again you'll be forever in my heart. xx
My life was a compleat mess and I hated myself and everyone else to. Looking back now I regret what I put my poor parents through. They never knew why I was like I was they tried to stand by me as best they could. But i didn't make things easy for them at all. Then on the 19th may 1998 my life began to change forever. A little chestnut mare came into my life. She was as messed up as I was. She hated the world and everyone in it.
I was deturmined to help this little mare. When I was with her I forgot all my troubles and focased on her. When I was with her nothing else mattered. Not school, the teachers, the other pupils, my family not even the other girls at the yard. It was just her and me. I sat on the field gate every day and talked to her. This went on for 6 months. One day I had had a very tough day and realy felt like I had had enough. The girls at the yard had been realy teasing me and told me that even my own pony hated me. I went up to the field and sat on the gate crying. I was crying so hard I didn't notice the pony creeping closer and closer. Eventualy she was right next to me. I slowly reached out my hand and touched her neck. I remember it was so soft and warm. I felt all warm inside, I gave a little smile for the first time in ages and started to cry happy tears. From that moment on things started to change. Everyday the little mare trusted me alittle more. Still all the girls at the yard were laughing at me telling me to have the pony shot. But I knew she could trust me. I knew she could learn to trust again. I became deturmind to prove them all wrong. I put all my energy into the pony instead of my self loathing. I started going to school. I didn't care about the teachers or the pupils anymore. I knew once I got home I could go and see my pony and she was all that realy mattered now.
Eventualy I was able to lead her into the yard, groom and tack her up.
Words can't describe how amazing it felt and finaly after a year of owning her I was able to ride her. It was very difficult at first and I fell off her every single day atleast once. But I had gained her trust in the field so I knew she could be ridden. I kept on trying with everyone laughing in my face. I knew she could do it and she did.
The pony i'm talking about is Lucy. She turned out to be the best pony I could have wished for.
People talk about how I saved Lucy and turned her life around. But she saved me. I realy don't know what would have happened to me if she haddn't have come into my life. For 12 years she was my best friend. Whenever times got tough she was there to help me through. Without her I honestly don't think I would be here anymore.
I wasn't able to be with Lucy at the end. I still feel so guilty for not being there for her when she needed me most. For not saying goodbye.
I made this video. The song says everything I wish I had said to Lucy before she died.
[youtube]PRvOZqtTKrk[/youtube]
I will never beable to thank Lucy enough for all she did for me over the years we were together. I just hope she knows how much I love her. Life just isn't the same without her. But her memory keeps me going. She taught me never to give up, no matter how hard it gets.
RIP my angel. Till we meet again you'll be forever in my heart. xx
