9 months ago today.

Queenbee

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I said goodbye to my beautiful girl, there are no words to describe how wonderful she was and how much she meant to me, for some reason this last week and the 9 month hurdle has hit me hard.

Expressing how much the support of everyone on here at the time, meant and will always mean to me is simply not possible.

Pretty much everything about today was hard, and I am so angry that my girl was unable to be stood in the field, basking in the albeit cold sunshine with ben to be bought in tonight.

No time will ever be long enough with the ones we love, but I grieve for her and I grieve that despite everything, she must have suffered during her illness. I wish she had just dropped down in the field, happy and healthy and knowing and feeling nothing but joy.

I love ben, but will never ever find another like her to me, everything about her was pure perfection.

This horse,
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should never have had to suffer and look like this
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And I should never have had to say goodbye so soon:
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I said this at the time, and I still continue to live by it and urge others to do the same: Make every day count, remind yourself every day how lucky you are to have your horse and make the most of your time together.

I don't need lots of responses to this thread, I just needed to share, and needed to voice how much your support and words comforted and helped me x thank you x

RIP my beautiful girl x
 
I cant believe that's been nine months. On the first of april it will be a year since I lost milieu and I'm dreading it. Sending you a big virtual hug xxx
 
Can't believe its been that long.
Hugs and love to you.

On the 27th march it will be three years since we have lost the chestnut pony. We still miss him so much but he is causing havoc in the field in the sky.
Xxxxxxxxx
 
Gosh, that's gone quickly.
I can vividly remember being touched by your dedication to Ebony, trying all those different feeds and supplements, and being strong enough to make the right decision when it was needed. xx
 
I don't know you QB in real life but you talk a lot of sense and I look forward to your posts. You did your absolute best for your girl and deep down you know that. Life can be so hard sometimes. Virtual hugs winging your way x
 
Emilieu said:
I cant believe that's been nine months. On the first of april it will be a year since I lost milieu and I'm dreading it. Sending you a big virtual hug xxx
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Im so sorry xxx I am in honesty dreading the 16th of June and that mile stone, I will be thinking of you xx

victoria1980x said:
time passes so quickly... does it get easier with time?
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It does and it does, I think my grief pattern has been so weird because of the situation, she was so ill I had to say goodbye for her sake, and because of her deterioration, I had time to shall we say accept and come to terms, before the deed was done, that week was very hard... it was like I was a zombie and the only pain I felt was for ben and the effect it had on him, 1 month milestone and 3 month mile stone were a bit shaky too but in between times, shockingly normal and fine:( since the three monther, every month has passed with little notice and recognition, I didn't even realise it had been six months until it was something like the 20th. For me it has been easy, and that is what I hate most is that my life goes on and im ok, but this week and today mostly, for some reason is killing me, I am suddenly so angry, so bitter, and feel the absolute injustice of it all and my heart is breaking and I feel as raw as if I only just came from having her PTS. The worst thing is, by tomorrow or the next day... I will be ok again and life will go on... and she wont be in it:(:(


JackJill said:
I don't know you QB in real life but you talk a lot of sense and I look forward to your posts. You did your absolute best for your girl and deep down you know that. Life can be so hard sometimes. Virtual hugs winging your way x
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Thank you x but we always have regrets and what ifs, no matter what or how much we have done. you are right of course, i know that in the time frame I did everything I could.... and my vets... to me they were the miracle in all of this to stumble across such a practice and that point in my life. I just wish, we had longer, to try, even though Im certain that she was terminally, would that I had a gini in a lamp...

I am feeling sorry for myself, but the thing that makes me mad is it isn't even that she was taken from me far too early, its that she was taken from her life far sooner than she should have been. A life she loved, she deserved to carry on, grow old gracefully, retire in my field.

Anyway, I simply cant wallow or else I will sob... again:o Thanks all for your comments xx DD thanks to you and huge hugs to Dee for me xx
 
Oh bless you, that and the last pic has brought a tear to my eye. It is never easy and it does take time and I do really feel for you, my old chap was 12 years ago last Jan and everytime it comes round it still hurts, but now I can look back at the fantastic time we did spend together and you will do in time. She will always live on in your heart, you take care x
 
I don't think I was on this forum nine months ago so I'm afraid I don't remember when you lost your beautiful Ebony, but I just wanted to say that I'm thinking of you and Ebony.

I lost my beloved Luka to acute colitis a year ago last October, he was only 11 and I remember feeling all the emotions that you have mentioned, and actually, the nine-month milestone was very difficult for me as well, I don't know why but it just hit me.

Rest in Peace Ebony, and take care of yourself QB.

Tash xxx
 
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